Wonderland

10. Meds and Late night Chats

My apartment-with my sister which is not here is very lonely. There's no sound, there's no life and there's no fun.

Its like my life right now.

Dull.

Blank and.. Scarred.

Anyway, I couldn't get a hold of my last encounter with the mean people in the field. I was scared. Throughout that day though, I was pretty silent during the duration of the class considering that the Mean people were there, intensely looking at me like they were ready to beat me, I guess.

I fought the urge to roll my eyes at them. Knowing Narrian's body size, she might crushed me in pieces. And knowing their army- well, mine doesn't count.

Jana was grinning at me, ear to ear. Honestly I don't know why these girls are so.. So much of a work to do.

Hello! We're not in highschool anymore! Can't they just wake up? Urgh.

Stacey on the other hand, well-knowing this girl, she can be a little annoying too-but not to me, but to the Mean people.

Everytime they started blabbering nonsense words, Stacey would laughed then throw words at them. Especially Jana since she has a thing for Stacey's cousin, Frael.

But Jana has a boyfriend.

Urgh.

They are just-

Oh I don't know. Plastic ?

I sat down in my computer and logged into Facebook. I scroll down my feeds and surprisingly I saw Leo with his girlfriend- Samantha.

Samantha is half Indian, that's why her hair is so shiny. I never met her, but Knorr said- when I was with them, before they got out from their shell- Samantha is kind.

But why do I feel like she isn't nice?

I couldn't sleep.

Its already 11 pm and I just can't sleep. Maybe its the medicine I swallowed earlier. Talk about headache.

Earlier this day I got knocked off course in the Library that earned attention to all of the student body there, but Leo was there and was able to helped me walk to the clinic which is just below the stairs.

Although it earned a lot more attention when he held me than when I fell in the center isle.

It was awkward when we got there though- I mean in the clinic.

The nurse smiled at us when Leo dropped me on the white sheets which is the bed in the clinic.

My head was throbbing in pain, like in so much pain.

"How are you feeling?" the nurse asked as Leo stood there beside me awkwardly.

The nurse might have noticed he was uncomfortable, seeing she's glancing on me and to him.

"I-I" I stammered. Leo shot me a knowing look that says go to sleep, I'll keep this nurse preoccupied with answers.

I nodded.

"She's been dull lately. I don't know if its me or just her, but she's skipping meals two days in a row." Leo then trailed on.

Has been Leo spying on me lately?

He does sure know everything from me.

I've been skipping meal because I am so busy on our baby thesis that is ruining my mind lately. Major subjects sure knows how to make students life a major problem considering we aren't graduating students.

I woke up with a music blaring beside me. The clinic was so white, I look around but the nurse was absent-but Leo was here practicing his dance for the upcoming Olympics we have in our department.

Yeah, and I will be performing. How sad is that? 

Super sad.

I'm not much of dancer, but I can dance.

Our group is shit though, I don't know if I can survive it.

"Hey Leo?" I struggle to sit up. Leo came rushing on my side.

"Hey, how're you feeling?"

Beside from the throbbing pain, "I'm fine, I guess."

Leo then gave me some tablets- violet, white and..white. I stared at his hands.

"Medicines." he tells me.

"But those are lot." I scrunched my nose.

Leo chuckles, "Well what do you expect?"

I  examine him as I furrowed my eyebrows, completely curious on what would happen if I swallowed those.

"What the hell." I snatched the three tablets and began swallowing them one by on and then water.

It was very hard to not stare at his face. Especially when he laughed and when he's serious.

Seriously, Leo has this mood swings that sometimes bewildered me if he's really serious or not. But what the hell.

I keep staring at my newsfeed until someone messaged me. I swallowed hard-

Hi Heather. How's your head? Leo told me he went with you in the clinic. - Carlisle.

What do you care?

I wanted to say that. Until how many days I waited for his message, I became dull and lifeless and now? Now that I'm alright, he's connecting with me again?

Seriously how f.cked up is that?

I'm doing great now thanks. Yeah, he was very nice to me earlier which reminds me I have to call him.

I hit send.

Okay that went out calm, I guess.

I messaged Leo.

Hey Leo, thank you for accompanying me earlier. Appreciate it a lot. -H

Then without a minute Leo replied.

No problem Heather. By the way how is your head? - L

It's getting better, but those tablets made me don't want to sleep. - H

On the other side, Carlisle was typing.

Oh, okay.

He says.

I'm really sorry Heather.

I wanted to cry.

Why can't he talk to me in person and just let it all go like Elsa in Frozen would do?

Why can't he just tell me he doesn't want me instead he is giving me these signs. These signs that I don't really think fits on my sorrounding.

Why can't he be a man ?

I'm sorry too Carl, I fell without precautions.

I tell him.

Leo has sent me again another message.

You should go to sleep Heather. We have a long day tomorrow. - L

I will Leo. Tysm. - H.

I logged out before Carl could send me another message. It'll only breaks my heart more.

Tomorrow's a long day.