I DONT WANT YOU | rindou x reader

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"Rindou??" You shook him by his shoulder to snap him out of his daydream. "Rindou what were you gonna say?"

"I— gotta go." He adjusted his clothing before hopping off the bed and out the door. You were so confused. You stared at the door after he left deep in thought. A part of you thought he was going to confess, but he didn't. You were left a little disappointed but it's whatever.

Rindou on the other hand was freaking out. A daydream?? Seriously?! Why on earth is he having dreams about that sorta stuff?!

He slammed the door of his room, throwing himself on the bed. Sticking his face deep into the covers. Fucking daydreams. He was so confused.

Does he love you?

It just slipped out, whether it was a dream or not. The thought of you rejecting him made his stomach churn. His eyes were slowly drifting to sleep as he embraced the comfort of his bed.

"Rindou, wake up." You tapped his shoulder, "Rindou."

He blinked, opening his eyes to look at your face. "Yn?"

"You didn't finish your sentence back in my room." You sat next to him, "what were you gonna say?"

"I was gonna say I love you." He admitted.

You blinked. Once, twice, thrice, before bursting into laughter. "That's it?"

He nodded, gulping in the process.

"Phew, I thought it was something important. I'll be off now." You stood up.

A part of him just shattered. "Y/n?"

"Bye Rin!" Was the last thing you said before you walked out of the door.

Rindou sat up, waking up from his short dream. Or should he call it a nightmare. Didn't matter, all he knew it was hell. And it was his biggest fear coming into reality.

Rejection.

His mind was flooded with thoughts and possible outcomes he was too scared of having. What if he does confess? Will you reject him? Will you hate him? Will you be disgusted by him? Will you never want to be around him ever?

It was too risky. He didn't want to risk your friendship.

The next few days, he avoided you like the plague. You were starting to get lonely. You weren't close with the other members the way you were with Rindou.

A part of you was trying to gather up the courage to talk to him, but you just couldn't. Why was he mad at you? Did you do something wrong?

Did he find out you have feelings for him? Is he disgusted by it? Clearly, since he's avoiding you.

He hasn't spoken to you since. You'd been in your room those entire few days. It felt like hell. You genuinely thought of Rindou as a friend, someone that kept you company when you were down. But now he's gone you just feel lonelier than ever.

Kakucho came inside eventually and brought you food, since you stopped coming out of your room he thought you weren't going eating. You managed to make small talk with him, but only that.

He knew something was up with you and Rindou since he hasn't seen the two of you hang out since. And if you ever were in the same room, it was awkward. Like hella awkward.

You two wouldn't even look at each other.

Rindou thinks you'll reject him. You think he's disgusted by your feelings.

"Rindou I think I love you." The two of you had just finished having sex and he was buttoning up his pants.

"You what?"

"I love you."

"That's disgusting." He grabbed your face, squishing your cheeks together, "wasn't you the one that said this thing we got going on included no feelings involved?"

You nodded, cheeks still squished together in his grip. "I can't do this anymore. Too risky. Sorry y/n." He let go of your cheeks before walking out.

A tear slipped from your eye as you thought of that very possible scenario.

ANGST TIMEEEEEE