𝓦𝓸𝔀, 𝓘'𝓶 𝓲𝓷 𝓛𝓸𝓿𝓮 ~ 𝓚𝓵𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓹𝓱𝔂 / 𝓒𝓸𝓷𝓶𝓪𝓷

. － Thirty Eight // Connor － . (Rem;)

Connor's P.O.V (Remade)

I set the remote down next to his phone on the coffee table. "Hey, you okay?" He digs his head more into my shoulder. "You... know you can say you aren't, right?" No response. I can feel his hands slide up my shirt. I just sit, trying to comfort him as best as I can. I can feel that something's wrong. "Was it Evan, again, or...?"

He nods. "Do I need to, like, kick his ass for you?" Again, no fucking response. "I really don't want to think about Evan right now." "Understandable," He shifts, sort of uncomfortably. "Let's just," He starts. I can feel his hand travelling slowly up to my hair, grabbing it and gently tugging at it. "think about something else for a while."

His head turns, he's fucking kissing my neck, but this time less playfully. I can tell he's most definitely not into it, though-- So I lightly pull his hand away from my hair and lift his head up. "Please tell me what's wrong." I fix his glasses and try to give him the most sincerely serious expression I can physically muster up. "Idon'tknow." He scoots over closer to me, resting his head on my shoulder once again. This time is different, though. I can feel the water dripping slowly down my sleeve. "Hey, hey... it's gonna be okay, alright?" "No it fucking isn't. Go date somebody else, because clearly I don't fit any category of 'cool', or 'smart', or fucking 'nice'. I'm just an issue." I pull him closer to me, hugging him.

"Okay. You might not be the fucking standard of 'cool' designed by the dumbest of the dumb popular kids. And you might not be nice 24/7, but your a fucking human. If every person was nice throughout all of their lives, we wouldn't have had, like, any world wars. You are not an issue. You are so amazing to the people around you, your like literally the best person I've ever met.. Yes, even above every other person that I've dated. Yeah, above my fucked family too. I fucking love you, alright? I just.. I understand why you don't like, well.. you. I had that too. I have that. It's not going away any time soon. We've just gotta..." Big breath in. "Help each other out with it."

I can't tell how many minutes passed by as we sat there, but I hear the familiar 'click' of the door unlocking. "Shit." He brings his head back up, aggressively shoving my jacket off. "Uh, what? Why are we whispering?" Another click sounds, keys jingle on the other side. "What's happeni--"

"Just act casual."

The door creaks open, right in time for the TV to come on again, some stupid review of a book that was obviously a rushed pick is playing. A woman rushes past us, and to the kitchen. "Who the hell is that?" I whisper. He whisper-groans back, rubbing his eyes. "My mom." I can hear something clink in the kitchen, most likely the groceries she was carrying in. "Uh, sorry I didn't text before-hand, I know you like carrying in the groceries for me because of my back," I glance at the kitchen which light has now been turned on, then to him. "D'aw." He elbows me. "Shut up."

I stretch my arm out behind him on the couch, acting as casual as possible. Eventually the light turns off, and she walks out, walking toward the couch. "You know it's almost 5:00, right?" He nods and sighs as she turns on a lamp near us. I watch as her expression goes from blank to ecstatic in a matter of seconds. "Oh, my goodness! You have a friend over? We haven't had anyone over in ages!" "Mom-" "I could go get some snacks, or we could make some! And he could stay over and have a sleepover... if his parents allow it, of course." "Mom." "Sorry, sorry, I'm just so excited!" 

"I know." He looks at me. "Connor's gonna stay over, his parents are fine with it. You don't.. really have to do any of that. I know your tired from work and the flight back to Florida, and stuff." She nods timidly. "I guess I'm a little jetlagged. Well, uh. Just tell me if you boys need anything, okay?" I nod. "It's nice meeting you, Connor." "Yeah, nice meeting you as well." She walks away, up the stairs. I hear a door shut and immediately stare over at him, smirking.

"That was adorab--" "Fuck you." "You can try," I duck down, kissing him on the cheek. "Fuck you double now." "You are so fucking cute." "Shut up or she'll hear you and come back down." I roll my eyes at him. "Come on, you know you love it." He rolls his eyes right back at me, pulling me down into a kiss. 

~

I grab the remote from him, clicking the TV off. "Do you think it's dark enough to finally actually get some sleep?" He looks out through the blinds; the sky is practically pitch black. "Fine," He states, getting up and stretching his arms above him. "I guess, maybe, it's dark enough for sleep." 

We get changed pretty quickly, get into bed pretty quickly. His face is in my chest again. "Hey, we were gonna.. talk about some stuff, right?" He tries to act like he's asleep. "I can tell your still awake." He sighs. "What's the stuff you want to talk about, then?" "Uh... what's up with your dad?" He hesitates, which regularly isn't that great of a sign. "He.." I feel him pull away from me just a little bit. "Left. He left me and my mom, so.. uh, y'know.. yip-ee." I can tell that something's still not right. "Now if you don't mind," He digs his head back into me. "I'd really like to sleep right now."

Word Count : 1149

Time : 11:37 a.m. jkgbogh

Inspo : pretty diggity darn good (lmfao)- nobutreally i think im just dying rn because of the fact that the first time i looked up where ellison state park was (the only place telling you anything about where the deh kids live, and etc) i got monroe county, and i had to look up where monroe county was located (cuz im a stupid little ghosty with literally no geography skills) and i got florida. everyone is a florida man now, help. HELP. ORHHWORHOH

P.O.V for the next chapter : actually probably connor again this time. hes genuinely easier to write as and also i think i need to do his pov for the storyline atthispoint

Get called out for being amazing sfjjfbwkg : readxr_uwu bc ofc!! my dude, ily, and dont think just cuz you left imma forget you, your the person who inspired the book, arizonaiceteass ! enjoy ur life ily sm!!!!