Darkest Shadows

2) Eres Guapa

"Darling, you are my world, without you I have nothing."--Jaxin

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Two years earlier...

Jaxin remembers thinking that Ambrose was the most handsome guy he'd ever seen, he was confused on why he thought that, but there was no denying it. He found little excuses to be near Ambrose or make him smile, hearing him laugh always made him smile, the jokes Ambrose made never failed to make him better. The idea of Lonely Buddies was great, and it worked too. Jaxin didn't feel alone anymore, he had a friend who cared for him and who listened to him, he now had someone who was just as lonely as himself, as blind to love as he. After some time that view of thinking Ambrose was handsome morphed into desire, he thought Ambrose was hot, like daaaaaamn hot. He no longer just wanted to make Ambrose smile, he wanted him to smile so he could see that hint of a pink tongue that stuck out when he smiled. He would train with Ambrose so he could see him with his shirt off. It was so confusing.

The day that Jaxin was paining Gwen's room and Ambrose came back with cookies was the most pivotal point in his life, if you had asked him how he thought his night was going to end there was no chance he'd think that he and Ambrose would have slept together. When he woke up in Ambrose's arms naked he freaked, the first thought that went through his mind was this is a mistake the next was much worse, we aren't a mistake. It was unfathomable that he was into guys, that he was gay, that he lost his virginity to a freaking male. It was all too much and yet not enough. As he threw his clothes on and ran out of the Highrise and to Tracy's a thousand thoughts were running through his head, not to mention the pain in his body. He hadn't a clue what to do from there. Ambrose had made that easy and came back to him only for them to screw up again.

Then he pushed Ambrose away and the venom he spoke he wished he could take back as soon as it left his lips, he saw the hurt in Ambrose's eyes and knew he was as vulnerable as Jax was. You're right, it was a mistake all the way down to asking you to stay, so shame on me for ever caring but that ends now. Suffer alone, I don't give a damn were the words that Ambrose spoke that drove a stake through his heart.

One year earlier...

Boyfriend. Never had he called someone boyfriend nor been called boyfriend, it was all foreign to Jaxin, but what wasn't foreign was the happiness he felt when he was with Ambrose, he felt safe and loved with him. Those three little words had been brewing on his lips for quite some time, it wasn't until Ambrose was bleeding out on the floor of his bedroom that his mind kicked in gear and kept repeating those words to him in reassurance to himself and persuasion to Ambrose to come back. It was a nightmare to see Ambrose in pain and ashamed of his condition, in his mind, it was all worth it when Ambrose returned his feelings and said he loved him, the pride and love that washed over him threatened to drown him, but like always, Ambrose was there to hold his hand and keep his head above water.

It was the best thing to fall asleep in Ambrose's arms and wake up with Ambrose nestled against his chest, it melted his heart every morning when those jasper green eyes would open sleepily and blink up at him with a lopsided grin. It was like heaven to kiss those lips and feel his warm body against his own. Being with Ambrose is pure bliss...that is until he went into the mental facility where he was tortured and drugged, where his Ambrose died and a shell of him emerged. Despite all the things different about Ambrose he can't complain too much because Ambrose is alive and in his arms, sleeping next to him and whacking him in the face at night. Despite all of this it led them to a future of love and bliss.

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Present: 2978

Ambrose is happy for his best friend, he really is. It's awesome that he got Athrhea back and married her and now they have a son; it's totally awesome. The excitement and happiness he feels for his best friend don't take away the pain in his heart. All he wants is to marry Jaxin and have a family, have that daughter they talked about, and be happy; is that too hard to ask? It's all he wants, and yet everything he can't have. "Amby? You okay?"