Darkest Shadows

6) Oh, What A Sight

"I just need to hold you right now."--Jaxin

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The pain was immeasurable, he never thought he'd have to do this, have to lower his love into the ground, watch as his love's lifeless body is shut in a casket and put in the ground. "Junts estem, per la vida I la mort, respirant les cendres d'aquests davant nostre. Together we are, for life and death, breathing the ashes of these before us. Rest here for all eternity in peace Ambrose Bellezza, you have served the gods, now let the gods serve you. Adéu." Gemini.

"Adéu." Athrhea.

"Adéu." Rhett.

"Adéu." Rosé.

"Adéu." Ace.

"Adéu." Tracy.

"Adéu." Liam.

"Adéu." Ashely.

"Adéu." Jay.

"Adéu." Adam.

"Adéu." Laci.

"Adéu." Kristie.

"Adéu." Zero.

"Adéu." Demi.

Tarver cries.

"Adéu." Jaxin.

Jaxin turns in Rhea's arms, burying his face in her neck as he cries, her hands wrapping around him and stroking his head. Gemini finished speaking in the ceremony and came to wrap his arm around Rhea and Jax, breathing in deep to keep his tears at bay. Ambrose may have been Jax's boyfriend, but he was Gemini's best friend and Rhea's brother-in-law, Rhett, Ace, Ashely, and Rosé's brother-in-law, Tracy and Liam's son-in-law, and Tarver's Uncle Ambrose. They all lost someone today. "We're so sorry Jax," Rhett mumbles, wiping tears out of his face. Jax can only nod, too numb to do anything else. The rest of the family comes over to parrot their condolences to which Jax only nods, still clinging tight to Rhea who has become more of a mother figure to him since she came back from Hell.

"Let us go sit down," she suggests, and half carries him to the bench on the side of the Highrise about thirty feet from where Ambrose is now buried close to the bank of the River Thames. From their bedroom all Jax has to do is look out the window and he can see the flowers on top of the grave. It's the closest Ambrose will be to their bedroom again. "You should drink some water; it will help soothe your throat and headache."

"How do you..."

"I learned that at six years old when my dad died, I swore there was a construction site in my head. And I wanted to get you talking. This will sound stupid, but how are you feeling?"

Jax shrugs. "It hurts," he whimpers, starting to cry again, "really bad. It's my fault, if I hadn't have left him he would be alive, you all could have handled the scorpions yourself and I would have been there. He would have died there alone, and I promised him I would be right back, he even had our movie picked out for us. He deserved so much better than me."

"Do not say that Jaxin. We all think that about ourselves and our lovers, do you know how many times I told Gemini that, but he refused to let me go. It is not our decision to make, it is theirs, if he thought he deserved better and you were not enough then he would not have stayed with you, he loved you Jax, and the love you two have is a love I have never seen. Gem is not broken like I am, he is not shattered, we have a great love because of that, what I think is more impressive is that you and Ambrose both had your demons, yet you helped each other. You knew his darkest shadows and did not run, you stayed and helped him, you stayed and loved him, and that by far, is the best help anyone could receive. So do not say he deserved better because I know for a fact, in his mind, you are as good as it gets."