If I loose her, I loose myself.

Chapter 8

Ivan's p.o.v.

We spent the our date knowing so much about each other. I didn't know how but I managed to talk to Lilly. It was as if the words just came out without hesitation. And what really shocked me was the fact that I said the two words that I've never said to anyone. Not even to my family. "I'm sorry." You know, I couldn't even believe it when I said it. The words came out before I even noticed I said them. It took me seconds to process the whole thing. What I still don't understand is how it happened.

Romeo parked the car in front of Lilly's house. She smiled at me and all I could do was look at her cute face. Her expression suddenly changed and then she frowned. She took her hand, placed it on both ends of my lip, then spread them apart. Oh, she wanted me to smile. But judged by the way she started laughing, I looked funny.

"I'm sorry Mr. Mon-dragon. You look funny with that face." I looked at myself in the review mirror and indeed I looked like a clown. Romeo looked at me and choked in a laugh. Hey come on, it's not a big deal. I looked at Lilly with the same face and again, there she goes, bursting out, laughing hard and tears were falling.

Some kind of emotions I never knew existed suddenly washed over me. It was as if her laugh was responsible for opening my deepest emotions. I've made her laugh a lot today. This is the first time I've made a girl this happy. My heart was slamming against it's rib cage like never before. The harder she laughed, the faster it goes. As if it was happy. Goose pimples erupted all over my arms and legs.

Then suddenly I could feel my lips twisting up in a smile. A real smile. Lilly stopped laughing and just looked at me with her mouth slightly opened. What was happening to me? Then suddenly, I made a sound from my throat. It was as if I was forcing air out of my lungs. And it felt good.(Don't laugh at my description. I'm trying to describe how to laugh 😂)

Romeo turned to look at me and by the time I realised, both were staring at me in full shock. What have I done? Didn't I smile right? Or I looked creepy? Both looked at each other in wonder. "Miss Liliana, what have you done to my boss?" Romeo asked as Lilly keep staring at me with those big eyes of hers.

"Did you just smile and laugh?" She asked me. "You just did it. Romeo, you saw that right?" Romeo nodded. And both continued staring at me. But suddenly, my phone started ringing and yeah, it at least distracted them. Lucy. I almost forgot about work. "Sir please you have a meeting in the next thirty minutes. Please should I inform them you are busy and won't be able to to meet them?"

"Why?" I asked. "I'm sorry sir, you are always here before 7:00am but today, it is almost 11 in the morning and you aren't here so I figured it out you might be doing something very important." I was indeed doing something important.
"Don't cancel the meeting. I will be there." I said then hanged up.

"I'm sorry I had to waste your time today." Lilly said. Really? Her presence was worth it. "Don't be."
"If you would excuse me, I would like to leave. Thank you for your time. I really enjoyed your company." Me too.

We both got out of the car and I took her to the door. With a smile she thanked me. As a matter of fact, I didn't want her to go. I which I could take her to my office so I could look at her all day but I know she would disagree. She took out her key card and unlocked the door. Then she smiled at me and oh boy, it melted my heart.

Lilly was about to enter when I suddenly pulled her in for a hug. She tensed at first but then wrapped her arms around me. Then she whispered in my ears, "I want you to always smile. You looked really handsome with it earlier" then pulled away. With a smile, she entered her house and shut the door. What she said alone could make me smile all day and yes it did.

       When I entered the car Romeo just told me to shut my mouth. He said it is weird to start smiling all of a sudden and that I should take it slow. I trust him. I really should take it slow but when I'm with Lilly, I can smile all day.

       Looking at the pictures I secretly took Lilly at our date, Romeo interrupted. "Boss, you know what, I'm so proud of you. For a good and healthy relationship to work, one has to learn to say sorry even if it's not his or her fault. I know you will eventually figure it out ones you start going out with her but it actually happened sooner than I expected. You said sorry. Congratulations. Saying sorry to a girl means you love and respect her and that is exactly what you've done. You've showed her she is really important to you."

        You know what, I actually figured it out as well today. I've never heard Dad saying sorry to Mom whenever he shouts at her when he is angry. Mom is always the calm one. I don't want to be anything like my father. I want a girl I could love and respect. I want a happy and healthy relationship. I would have to break it to Mom and Dad sooner or later that I love someone else and not Faye. I can't afforded to ruin our lives just like how Mom ruined her life living the rest of her life with someone she doesn't love. And sometimes I wonder if Dad never loved anyone in his life.

           When we reached the company, I got out of the car and headed straight for the meeting. As usual, ones I stepped in, everyone rose to their feet. I sat on my chair and nodded my head for them to sit. I always nod before they seat. I wonder what will happen if I don't nod for them to sit. Will they keep standing on their feet? I've never tried that.

Liliana's p.o.v.

          Immediately I pulled away from Ivan and entered my house, I was so happy. I leaned against my door with a huge smile on my face. He likes me. But how? I ignored that. How he managed to like me doesn't matter. What matters now is he likes me and just on our first day, he managed to apologise then smiled. He really shared his first two things with me. I must really be special to him.

       When I opened my eyes, Madd and Vi were staring at me as if I was some kind of mysterious creature. I squeaked and went over to hug them. After telling them everything that went on, they were so excited for me.

       Getting out of my dress, I headed straight into the balcony. I had to call Mom and tell her everything. She picks on the first ring. "Hello honey ." She said. After asking her about her health and how everything was going on in Chicago, I decided to spill the beans. "Mom, I want to tell you something." I said. "On all ears sweet pea ."

       "I don't know how to say it but Mom, I've started seeing a guy. His name is Ivan Mom-dragon and he is 23 years. Our first meeting was not really nice but he came to my graduation and delivered a speech. We went out on a date today. He asked me to be his girlfriend . I didn't say Yes though but I said I would love to know him better and he took it as a Yes."

        I explained everything to her, the first day we met, how Kelvin knew it and the fact that he is a very good guy. I said everything. I even told her how I feel whenever he's around. Butterflies. She giggled a little bit and whispered, "my baby girl is growing." I just imagined what her face was like in Chicago. Her smile and the way she usually holds her phone a lot away from her ears.

       "It's not a bad thing you like this guy. I mean, I know you'll eventually fall in love someday. But honey, don't you think it is a little too early to say Yes to him? You can start off as good friends. I guess you could get to know him better when you are friends and when the right time comes, you'll find your way forward." I got silence for some few seconds.

       "But Mom, what if he gets angry because I want us to stay as friends for some time? What if he sees someone else who is willing to start a relationship? What if I loose him?"
"Honey, loosing him just because you want to start off as friends means he doesn't love you. When he's yours, he'll stay. He'll wait till you are ready to date him. All that you said he told you, this is when you'll see if they are true or he's just messing around with you."

       What Mom said is a fact. He'll wait if he's truly telling the truth. Wow, I could never think so deep. But how would I know when the right comes for me to date him? I started biting my lips. Will it be possible for me to know when the right time comes or I'll have to ask mom about it again? Mom cleared her throat and said, "don't think too much honey. You'll know when the right time comes, trust me." My genius Mom. As if she knew what I was thinking about.

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