I am Widow

Chapter 21

Back to Widow's Past
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"Sweetie, you need to go to school. It has been two days. The principal called me. She says you need to go back. You don't feel sick anymore right?" mom asks.

I am laying down on my bed. It has been days since the most horrible night of my life. I've been crying for 48 hours. I kept telling my mom that I have tummy aches, and bad nightmares.

"Well, get ready. You're going to school." Mom kisses me and leaves.

I don't want to go anywhere, I don't want to do anything.

I feel so sad, dirty, and angry. I still don't get what Joe did to me. I don't want to replay that night but I can't stop. His hands touching every part of my body, hearing his moaning over and over again, and his lips kissing mine.

I haven't seen him since, and I don't want to.

Mom screams to get ready so I do. I get my uniform, and put my red sneakers on.

We arrive to my school. Mom signs papers, my teachers asks if I'm okay and everyone smiling and saying hi to me.

Rihana notices that I'm down and not me. She keeps asking what's wrong. I just tell her I still have a bad stomach ache. I can't focus on my work, and I don't want to eat. At recess I see Kyle, he smiles at me.

"Widow! Oh I'm so glad you're okay."

I feel so scared and uncomfortable seeing him. "hey what happened to you? One of your friends told me you had a tummy ache."

I just stand here.

"Widow, you okay?" he comes closer. He touches my cheek. I quickly push him away and start to scream, "Let me go!!"

He keeps asking me what's wrong with me and trying to calm me down.

"Widow!! hey! Dude calm down, I'm not touching you!"

"No! No! Stop it!!" before I knew it I was crying on the floor. I feel Kyle's arm around me.

"ssh ssh. Calm down Widow."

He takes me to the counselors. Before he leaves, he gives me a black bracelet with a white heart on it.

"I don't know what's going with you, but I care about you. Everything will be fine."

I stay with the counselor for like an hour. I don't want to talk, so she just sits there.

I go back to class and don't talk to anyone. I sit on the back desk and do my work.

Finally, the bell rings and I wait for my mom.

"Hey," Kyle says.

"you okay now?"

I just nod.

Suddenly he leans and kisses me. I don't kiss him back, my heart starts to pump blood so fast. Fear starts to travel to my body. Kyle gets more into the kiss and starts to taste my lips with his tongue. I start to cry and he pulls away.

"Hey hey don't cry. Sorry if kissed you like that," he says.

"I'm sorry. I can't be your girlfriend." I give him the bracelet back and run to my house.

I arrive to my house; I am trying to breath. I am still outside so I sit on the sidewalk. Mom is probably looking for me now. She will get mad once she knows I am here. I start to cry so badly.

"Widow, oh my widow," Joe says.

He sits in front of me and holds my head up. I want to run away, to scream, to punch him.