Courageous(Can i love again?)

Chapter 42

Keira's POV

I woke up with a little pain. I'm glad that the medicines I took works for me. It's still dark, I woke up too early.

I get my phone on the bedside table and look at what time is it. I was suddenly awakened from lying down when I saw what time it was. It's already nine in the evening, my show starts at seven. I'm done. I'm done. I scream.

"Aahhhh! Why did I sleep too much!" I said so loud in myself. I got up and ignored the pain I'm feeling, and I started pacing back and forth while trembling. My show. What I'm gonna do? It's for the kids. I lost one of my shows. This is bringing me anxiety. Then someone suddenly came. So I run towards the door.

I saw him wearing a very elegant suit. I want to ignore him but I can't, I want to know what happens.

"You're already up." He said with a smile.

"Already up? Do you know what time is it?" I said furious but he was all smiling at me. Is he mocking me again? I am angry. Very angry.

"What? What do you mean? Come one let's get you to bed." He said calmly. I shoved him away from me and glared at him furiously. He was surprised by that. He's acting all innocent. Wow! Just wow!

"Why didn't you bother to wake me up? My show is at seven, it's already nine. I already lost it because of you! You really doing everything to destroy me! Are you happy now King ha? Are you happy?" I said. He frowns matching my angry state.

"And what is that? Why are you wearing that? Did you just go to a party and celebrate by destroying my career? Did you already tell your friends how screwed I am? Tell me! Tell me!" I said shouting at him. That's it, I'm showing all of the emotions I'm feeling towards him. He's just listening while looking at me.

"Is that how a big jerk you are? Is that who you really are? I've already sacrificed my freedom for you, just to marry you and to help you. And this, this is how you show your gratitude to me? Is this how you say thank you to someone? Is this? Then I don't need your thank you to me! I don't even need you in my life! I don't want to see you ever again!" I said with tears starting to fall from my eyes. I was trembling.

"Get out!" I said in greeted teeth. He was crying too. What is that? He doesn't have the right to have tears.

"GET OUT!" I said again furiously. Then he sigh and wiped his tears away. He turn around then he spoke.

"Now, you just showed me how deep is your grudge at me. But I don't screw you up. I will never do that to you Keira. Don't worry. I'm not gonna show my face to you again." He said, then he walked away and slam the door. 

I sat on the floor and I felt like I was in a lot of pain because of what he said to me. Did I go too far? There is a sharp pain in my chest when he walked away. What is this? Why am I feeling this?

After hours of crying on the floor someone suddenly came in, but I didn't bother to see who it was.

Then I heard Kate's voice.

"Oh my god, Keira. What happen? Why are you crying?" She said. I hug her immediately and cried.

"Get up. You're gonna have a cold just by sitting here. Let's go I'll help you." She said, then she helped me to get up my feet and guided me to sit on the sofa.

"Wait here. I'll get you some water." She said, then she's gone to get water. She came back and give it to me. I drink it all, I didn't know I am that thirsty.

"What happen?" She asked me again while rubbing my back.

"It's him. He destroyed me. He didn't wake me up, for me not to be able to get into my show. I hate him so much." I said really angry. But Kate was smiling at me.

"Why are you smiling? Is this fun to you?" I said and was about to cry again. She shakes her head.

"No. You just misunderstood everything Keira." She said. I frown in confusion.

"What do you mean by that?" I asked again. I'm not feeling good about this.

"I just came from the after party of the show. The show went great and we earn a lot more than the first one." She said. Now I am more confused. Then she continued.

"Where is he by the way? He came back early to accompany you here. Where is he?" She asked me with a smile. Then I just looked at her with sadness and her eyes widen and shake her head.

"You do not? Are you?" She said in disbelief and I just nod in shame.

"What? Oh my god! Keira, he was the one who saved your show. What did you tell him?" She asked me frowning. I sigh and spoke, I can't even look at her reactions.

"Everything I feel towards him. I told him how a big jerk he was, and I told him how I hate him so much." I said, more like whispering to myself.

"Oh my god! I can't believe you just said that to him. Then where is he?" She asked again. I just shake my head.

"I don't know. I told him to go away. And he told me that I will never gonna see his face again." I said with tears starting to fall from my eyes again. She facepalms herself and I know that she's annoyed with this.

"I already suggested to him to just get you when we have a problem with one of the dresses in the show. But don't worry he manage to pull everything and it went very well, more than we expected. He did everything he can even though he doesn't really know much about what we were doing. He really did his best to make it up to you Keira. He saved us all." She said explaining everything to me. I became more guilty for what I just did to him, for everything I said. I have no clue about what's truly happened. Oh my, what did I do?

I get my phone and started to call him, but no answer. I wonder where he was right now. I'm wrong that I accused him of no reason. I should listen to him first before I exploded. But you can't blame me, my shows are important to me. And I am already angry at him. I can't take it anymore that's why I exploded and said everything I wanted to him.

I don't know that he was the one who saved my show. I am guilty, I really am.

"What do I need to do now? Kate.." I said still crying. She wiped my tears and hug me.

"He will come back, I'm sure of it. Maybe he's just around the corner walking and thinking. Don't worry. Maybe tomorrow he will be here and don't forget to talk to him. Okay?" She said. I just nod and continue crying.

"Calm down now. Do you still have cramps?" She asked me. I shake my head.

"I forgot about my other pain for a while Kate." I said then we both laughed.

This time it is my fault. I hope he'll listen to me.