This Love

16

Chapter 16

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"Are you okay?" Zia asked. 

I nodded. Pumunta ako sa kanila ngayon kinabukasan matapos nung buong gabi 'kong pag-iyak kagabi. Gustuhin ko mang magsabi kay Isaiah, pero hindi ko magawa. Natatakot ako sa pwedeng mangyari. 

"Yes..." I answered. 

Zia comforted me that day. Even she also have a problem, she's still there for me. She told us that she have problems with Adler. That she knew what happened to Adler's past. It was not easy for her, pero I know she's brave. 

I've been crying for days. Feeling weak. 

Napansin ko 'rin na madali akong manginig kahit kaunting sigaw lang sa 'kin. Mabilis na akong kabahan. Fast heartbeats, hands trembling. And I've been dealing it for days. For weeks. 

And I explained it to Zia after experiencing it for days. 

"You should go to a doctor. Baka mental health mo na 'yan." 

"Kaya nga, eh." 

"I know somone. I'll contact her for you. Is it okay?" She asked.

"Yes. Thank you, Zi!" I smiled and hugged her. 

Since weekend naman, nag-date kami ni Isaiah after having a talk with Zia. We went to BGC and ate there at our favorite coffee shop. Bumili 'rin kami ng mga books. Shopping and we watched movie.

It's night when we got done. 

"Okay ka na?" He suddenly asked habang naglalakad kami. 

Gusto ko kasi maglakad and he agreed. Naisipan muna namin na maglakad saglit since the view was nice and beautiful. It was relaxing.

"Huh? Oo naman. Siraulo ka?" Takang sagot ko. 

"You've been crying for days." He whispered. Nakayuko siya. 

Napahinto ako sa paglalakad bigla. 

He didn't notice that I stopped walking kaya nilingon niya ako. Hindi ako makagalaw dahil sa sinabi niya. 

"Ano?" I asked.

He laughed sarcastically. "Akala mo hindi ko alam?" He said and went nearer. "Magkasama tayo araw-araw at araw-araw kitang naririnig." Napakalambing ng pagkakasabi niya noon. 

"Vince..." Nagugulat 'kong sabi. He went nearer and touched my face softly. It's so gentle. 

"Gusto kitang tanungin... Kaso iniisip ko baka hindi ka pa handa magsabi. Because I know you'll tell it to me soon. And I'll be waiting. Kaso..." He stopped and I just stared at him. He look so concern. He look worried. "Kaso hindi ko na kaya na iiyak ka lang palagi. Kaya inaya kita mag-date." He said while caressing my face. 

Namuo ang luha sa mga mata ko. Hanggang sa tumulo na. Vince wiped my tears. 

"Ang galing mo talaga, 'no?" Sabi ko habang naiiyak pa 'rin. "Bakit ganiyan ka? Bakit kilalang-kilala mo ako?" Naiiyak 'kong sabi. "Akala ko... Akala ko hindi mo nakikita... Hindi mo napapansin." I started crying. "Hindi ko sinasabi kasi hindi ko alam kung paano sabihin. Ang hirap-hirap." 

Then, I cried. 

In front of my man.

In front of my man who I didn't imagine I would cry on.

He hugged me. "It's okay. I won't force you to say anything. Just cry and lean on me." He whispered. "Nandito lang ako palagi, mahal." Then he kissed the top of my head while crying.