The New Boy | #wattys2016

chapter 10

After the phone call I head to my room. All I want to do is cry. When I walk in my room , I lock the door behind me. I curl up in my bed under the covers And pull Luke's pillow close. It smelled like him, it smelled sweet, almost like vanilla. I begin to think about what happened.  How I beat Chase senseless. I used to be like that but I have changed!  How could I become so mean? I begin crying. Why did I show Luke that side of me? Why did I hurt him so badly? It felt good to know that I had that side but also scared me. What if I lash out on Luke like that? I could never live with myself. As I think, these things and about how I'm such a monster the tears flow harder.

I hear a knock on the door

"K? it's Chris. let me in" he says

"Not now Chris." I say. I hear him leave. Then I remember that I have a ladder at my window. As I rush to go lock my window he has it opened.

"Well, I'm guessing you forgot my secret passage in" he says pulling himself through the window

"Yea...." I say going back To my bed.

" I remember when we were in middle school, I would come through your window almost every night to see if you were okay.you were such a trouble maker back then" he says sitting next to me

"Yea.I have changed a lot since then" I say

"But you wouldn't know because the day you come I have to fight a guy" I say.

He looks at me really long" you were crying, why is that? " he asks

"No I wasn't" I say hoping he doesn't catch me lying my butt off.

" sure...spill" he says

"Well...I feel like I messed things up and I think I could hurt Luke if I got upset enough" I say holding back tears

"No, Kat your fine, I know you wouldn't do that. You have changed to much. I promise" he says pulling me into a hug

" I missed you Chris" I say

"I missed you to Kat nip" he says

"You haven't called me that since Middle school" I say

"Well thought I would bring it back" he says.

After Chris left ,Dessie walked in" hey girly you okay?" I ask

"Yea. Are you okay is the better question" she says

"Yea...why wouldn't I?" I ask patting the spot next to me. As she sits she looks at me

" I have never seen that side of you" she says

" yea I know...I'm sorry" I say

" It's fine, thank you for helping" she says

" yea...no problem" I say as she leaves. I totally scared her. I'm such a monster I repeat in my head. why do you scare off the people you love. ... your such an idiot I scream in my head . I couldn't take it anymore. I begin to ball as I run down the stairs.

When I get down I see 2 new figures. My tears blurred my vision so much I couldn't see who was Luke. I run out the backyard. I find my amazing hiding spot from when I was younger. Nobody found me after and hour of yelling. Chris never found me when we were younger so I know that the spot still works