The New Boy | #wattys2016

chapter 32

*Katspov*

I wake up in the hotel room alone. I look over at where Calum should be to see a note. The note read:

Went to see mom to make sure you can stay. Brb I promise and if you need anything call me.

I look at the note for awhile. After I stand up and slide on a pair of sweats and a sweater of Calum's. I sit back down on the bed in complete silence. I begin to think back on the day I saw Destiny in Luke's room.

All the pain floods back and I'm only left to cry. Why did I let myself ever think Luke truly loved me? How could I not see past the beauty of him and realize that I set myself up for disaster ? As I think these things the tears flow harder. I get my phone out and text Calum.
(C=Calum K =Kat)

K: bring some beers here please
C: you sure??? Are you okay?
K: bring me beer and I'll tell you later
C: okay be there soon

I throw my phone on the other bed and continue to cry.
When Calum returned he returned with a case of beer.

" hey what's wrong?" He asks as he sets the case down and sits next to me.

" Um,.let me get a beer first" I say with a sniffle. I grab one and popped it open taking a huge gulp. I make a face because it was my first time drinking and it tasted foul.

" okay now spill" Calum says laughing at me.

" well, I thought back on the other day and I realized how much of and idiot I am for not recognizing Luke's intentions " I say finishing my first bottle.

I grab another after another. By my fourth I couldn't feel the pain anymore.

" Calum, you know that this experience makes me remember back when I first met Ashton... he was into quotes if you didn't know. You wanna know the top 3 I'm remembering right now?" I ask my words slurring a little bit.

" what are they?" He ask in pure soberness.

" the first being the most right now is  sometimes it's not the people who change it's the mask that falls off and that reminds me of Luke.... he didn't changed he just lost his mask of pure fakeness" I say raising my beer bottle.

" and the rest" Calum asks.

" second being sometimes all you can do is smile, move on with your day, hold back the tears and pretend your okay, I shall do this every single time I'm around Luke, the last is there comes a time when you have to choose between turning the page or closing the book.... I was trying to turn the page when Luke already closed the book" I say beginning to cry.

" I knew I was never good enough for him, he played me like a video game.... ugh!!!" I say as I throw my bottle at the wall and watch it shatter .

" Kat it's alright" Calum says pulling me close. I try to escape his embrace.

" no it's not, your just gonna leave me too..... this is how it starts every time and then I'm left" I say letting the tears flow. Calum let me go and just looked at me. I look away but he pulls me back to look at him. He kisses me passionately. When our lips depart he sets his forehead on mine. He has his hand on my neck. He doesn't open his eyes.

" I'm not going to leave you, you're my best friend, you mean the world to me.... I'm never going to treat you like Luke did, Never , you hear me " he says. I nod as he lets me go.

Calum lays down next to where I sit. We don't talk for awhile. Calum finally breaks the silence.

" come snuggle with me" he says holding his arm out. I lay in the empty space next to him. He wraps his arm around me and rubs my back softly.

" I'm sorry"I say.

" it's okay, I know you know better and I know you're hurting .." he says as he pulls me closer. I lay my head on his chest and slowly drift to sleep.