Evergreen

24: "its nice to be loved"

song recommendation: see you again by Tyler the creator

*Jimin POV*

The rest of the carnival date went by well. Jungkook and Lisa came back in different outfits and we all got on the Ferris wheel.

After getting on more rides with the other couple, Tae and I decided that we were tired and ready to go home.

"I think Jimin and I are about to head home," my boyfriend spoke up to the girl and her boyfriend.

"Okay bye!" Lisa said a little bit too quickly.

"Lisa I thought we were having fun?" I joked and chuckled at her.

"We are, I just want to have some alone time with Jungkook. I never get to see him," she pouted making me cringe. She was too clingy for my liking, maybe even for Jungkook's liking as well.

"You see him every day at school," Taehyung's smart mouth finally rose.

"But, that is school. I have one class with him, which is gym class and he is always busy with his friends," she was squeezing Jungkook's arm.

"Well, we are about to leave, so you can have all the time you want with him," I giggled and grabbed Tae's hand.

"Bye," Tae waved at the two.

"Bye Tae," everyone looked at Jungkook at how he basically just ignored me.

it went quiet.

"Bye Jimin," He sighed and waved at me.

"Goodbye you two, have fun," I chuckle at them and turn to walk away with my boyfriend.

"Did you have fun baby?" Tae asked me while he swung our intertwined hands together.

"Yea, it was kind of weird seeing Lisa being so nice to you," I looked up at him to see his side profile gracing me with its beauty.

"Most definitely. I'm pretty sure she was just doing it for Jungkook, but I guess it was kind of nice," Tae spoke up again as we finally made it to his car.

"Baby I had fun tonight. Truly," my back was against the car door as I pulled him closer to me.

"I'm glad you did," he grabbed his keys out of his pocket and unlocked the car door.

it was typically always me making the first move, but I didn't mind.

I cupped his cheeks with both of my hands and made his lips gravitate towards mine. They tasted like honey flavored chapstick he was always wore.
After we broke apart I couldn't stop staring at him. His long eyelashes slightly covering the beauty of his dark almond eyes and his mole on his nose that was so small, yet so noticeable. His hair was slightly pushed back by the light and calm wind that was blowing. He looked like a god. Everything about him was perfect. My mind must've been drowning in his looks because what I said next shocked the both of us.

"I-I love you," I stutter out.

SHIT!
OH NO!
DEAR GOD NO!
WHY JIMIN?!

"I-," he wanted to speak but something was stoping him.

"Oh don't worry about saying it back, I know you don't feel the same," I lower my head and open the door to get inside the car.

He watches me close the door and stands there for a minute before he gets in the car.

"Listen Jimin..." he tried to break the ice.

"I said don't worry about it Tae. Just take me home,"

"Home? I thought you were sleeping over my house tonight?" he pressed the button to start the car and put on his seatbelt.

"I just realized that my mom wants me home tonight," I lied. I couldn't sleep over after dropping the three word bomb on him. It was too awkward and I didn't want him to feel like he needed to pity me the rest of the night.

"ok," was all he said and he pulled off and took me to my home. The entire ride was silent. I felt like such an idiot.

He pulled up to the parking lot and he was about to get out when I stopped him.

"I can walk myself," I faked a smile and gave him a kiss on the check and tried my hardest to get out of the car as quick as possible. And I was halfway out until Tae spoke up...

"Wait Jimin! Can you talk to me please?" He pleaded.

I got back in the car and put my head down.

"Listen Tae. It was stupid, I should've never said it, I was j-just looking at y-you and you looked so beautiful and m-my heart spoke before my mind could s-stop me and I'm sorry, please don't hate me," I was a crying mess.

"Baby can you look at me?...Please?" he leaned his face closer to mine to see if he could get me to do as he asked.

I looked up at him like an innocent child would do if they were in trouble by their parents.

"I'm not going to lie and say I love you Jimin.." he started talking and god, I just wanted to crawl up in a ball and die.

"...But that doesn't mean I won't in the future," he continues and my eyes widen.

"You have to remember Jimin, I have only ever been with one person my entire life. My heart has been programmed to love him and him only. But I promise to you Jimin, I will do everything I can to love you back the way you want me to," his eyes were watering now.

"Stop crying," I chuckled and wiped his tears.

"Only if you do it first," he chuckled with me and wiped my tears.

We pressed our foreheads together and sat there for a few seconds.

"Babe?" I ask lowly, but he can still hear me because of out close proximity.

"Yes Mochi?" His eyes were  closed

"Can I still say it to you?" my eyes faltered, and I'm glad he didn't see how nervous I was.

"Yes baby of course, but, I don't want you to get upset when I don't say it back,"

"Okay... I love you," I said it again for the second time today.

"It's nice to be loved," he responded and closed the gap in between us and connected our lips.

I got out of the car and low-key regretted lying to Tae about not being able to stay over.

I really ruined my own blessings sometimes.