Evergreen

39: "we weren't perfect"

jimin's pov.

"and that basically it," I had just finished telling Sungwoo the crazy story of how Tae and I got together and the drama that continues to follows us even though him and Jungkook are no longer together.

"You don't deserve that, but I'm not one to talk," my former partner was laying on my bed, we had moved from the living room.

Before you get any crazy ideas, I had a hoodie on and I was feeling hot so I came in here to put it back in my closet. Sungwoo just happened to follow me.

"I guess it's in the universe's plan to make every man who I think loves me hurt me beyond imagination," I wasn't trying to hurt his feelings but it was the truth. Sungwoo and I were inseparable and more in love than anyone I've ever known, well, before the drugs.

*FLASHBACK*

The two boys were tangled up in Jimin's bed, shirtless and breathless. They had both given their bodies up to each other for the first time and it felt magical.

"Baby." Sungwoo was taller than jimin, like most people. But it was kind of funny to see him scrunched up in a bed that was made for Jimin's small body.

"Yea?" Jimin was comfortable, laying on his boyfriend's mildly sweaty chest.

"I love you," it was the first time Sungwoo had said this to the younger boy and it had made both of them freeze in shock.

Jimin was 14 and Sungwoo was 17. Yes, the age gap was uncanny but neither of them cared. Also, if either of their parents found out, one would be in jail and the other would be grounded till he graduated.

Nonetheless, losing his virginity at such a young age didn't bother Jimin, he was just glad he gave it to someone who loved him as much as he did.

"I love you too," it felt good for Jimin to speak those words. He had always felt it but he didn't want to make the older boy uncomfortable by confessing his feelings. He had thought he'd fallen in love too fast, like something was wrong with him for loving the older boy so much without knowing for sure if he truly felt the same.

The teenagers were in the house alone, both of Jimin's parents were out for the day, possibly not returning until nighttime.

Jimin's parents (mainly his mother) were strict when it came to dating. But they were educated, they knew the risks of having sexual relations as a gay man, and they wanted to protect their only son. They also had a rule that Jimin could only bring boys over when either one of them were home. Even then, if they were to be in his room, the door had to be opened. So if they found out that not only he was sneaking boys in, but having sex, at his young age...they would losers their minds.

They were accepting of Jimin's sexuality, he never really "came out" necessarily, but it was just a known fact that no one ever choose to mention or discuss.

He had had talks with his parents about sex and how he should wait until he's older to partake in those activities, but he was also taught that it should be with someone who he fully trusts. And there was no one in the world that he trusted more than Sungwoo.

But now that his virginity was so wonderfully taken from him, he knew he could not reverse his mistakes so he might as well keep doing it. Right?

"We should go again?" the 14-year-old's voice was soft and unsure. But Sungwoo still heard him.

"You're still horny Chim? Oh my god I've created a monster,"  Sungwoo wasn't a virgin. Jimin being the third person he has slept with. But the 17 year old assured his boyfriend that the other times were meaningless.