𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚒𝚜 𝚊 𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎

Chapter 41

John's POV

Nikki hasn't been this weird before. Since we killed Stacey, he seem to be more quiet. I know we messed up with that, but he's the guy with the orders not me. I still remember the night he gave me the money seven months ago. Still to this day I can't get the point. Why he had to kill Stacey? But that's not all. He's been talking with Moira under that new personality. Even minutes ago, he said something really dumb. Carl had killed Nikki. Why the fuck is he causing this to Moira? She didn't do anything bad... well maybe the arrest and stuff. I got it, she's detective, but damn. Nikki could have been a different person if he wasn't obsessed with murder and crime. Even drugs... Two days ago I saw his eyes. The pupils were dilated beyond recognition. I guess he came back to the drugs. But I don't think someone's gonna save him this time.

"JOHN, COME HERE." He's one with his insanity, AGAIN.
"What's the problem, boss?"
"I'M A MESS JOHN. I'M A FUCKING MESS." Like Hemingway said, the only thing that could spoil a day was people. Well, THANKS SIXX FOR SPOILING MY LIFE. I COULD HAVE BEEN ANYTHING THAN A CRIMINAL. But, on the other hand, it's me who chose to be this way. I already bought the ticket, there's no turning back from this criminal carnival. And let's not forget the little fact that I've killed more people than him.
"Calm down, boss. I'm gonna-"
"DON'T OPEN THE DOOR, THE WHOLE WORLD IS ABOUT TO BURST THROUGH IT."
"How am I supposed to help you if you don't let me in?" Okay, I think that's enough.
"Are there any Mexicans with you?" He sounded scared. Totally out of his mind. What is going on with him?
"No, it's only me." I think I hear forced footsteps. OH MY GOD, he opened the door and what did I see? A naked man who's pulling me by the hand to the room. Okay, that doesn't look like a room. There's no light at all, oh God. Okay, I think I should leave. But how are we supposed to do our job?
"I think I have a problem." YOU THINK SO?
"I'm sending someone to buy you medicine, okay?"

He's in his dark world again. And I'm with Tommy. So sad I had to kill his wife. Well, I think I should take him for a walk around the city, but he may run away. Maybe I should talk with him. Let's remove the tape first. He's quiet. Usually when someone is kidnapped and we remove the tape they start shouting, but I guess Tommy is different.
"Hey, Tommy. You want something?"
"Your death."
"Alright, you're mad at me. I got it, I killed your wife and you want to kill me, I know."
"WHY YOU HAD TO KILL HER? FOR MONEY?"
"Well, I got money for doing that, not the opposite."
"Wow, I guess Nikki pays you well."
"I can't complain."
"THEN WHY AM I HERE? AND WHERE THE FUCK IS HE?"
"He's in his room, alone."
"Let me guess. His insanity got too much?"
"He slipped on drugs."
"When he dies, because I'm sure he's gonna, tell him I won't save him this time."
"You know what? Now is your chance to run away."
"What?"

"You hear me T-bone, I'm gonna-"
"I can't go back BECAUSE OF YOU. MOIRA PROBABLY WANTS TO KILL ME RIGHT NOW." She tried to kill herself first.
"As far as I'm concerned, she tried to kill herself."
"What? Oh God, she's torn apart. She really loved Stacey. Oh, Stacey. Why you had to kill her, man?"
"Hey, even if I was the guy who murdered her, it was Nikki's idea. And to be honest, I was against that. But then he got the fucking idea of "beautiful and painless murder" and..."
"Wait what?"
"I poisoned her first. She couldn't have even expected she was being about to die. Then I-"
"Then you what?"
"I cut her and took her heart off from her chest and-"
"YOU DID WHAT?"
"I put it in a present box."
"ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID."
"I can assure you she had been already dead. At least she didn't feel any pain."
"Stacey, my Stacey... I-" Fuck, I hate when the victims start to cry. It makes me realize I'm nothing but a living mistake on this fucking planet.

Nikki's POV

I hate this house. I can't believe I came back here. I can't fucking believe I shot up again. After all these years. I should have stayed with Moira. But that murdering addiction is even more serious than any other. On the other hand, the arrest on that balcony can't leave my mind. It's like I do all of that just to feel the handcuffs Moira would put me. Wait, am I playing with people's lives just to see Moira arresting me? Now that's messed up addiction. But I can't play this game forever. One day I'll end up in jail for life and I won't see Moira again. Everything would have been fine if I hadn't killed Stacey. Who knows, maybe me and Moira would have sorted it out at last. Unfortunately, I'm that insane to give John money and kill Stacey. Well, at least she didn't feel any pain. Yet, Moira tried to kill herself. The words I had said to her... I had gone too far... I wish I were really dead. Not just dead inside. Well, now Moira will know how does it feel when you lose everything. My fucking parents didn't love me. Why am I alive? I could have died years ago. Even Tommy hates me now. It's a matter of time to piss off John completely. One by one my friends are abandoning me. Oh, I almost forgot I should call Moira. I hope I'm done with that drug insanity. But I have to be careful with my words, otherwise I'm revealed.