𝙻𝚘𝚟𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚒𝚜 𝚊 𝚌𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎

Chapter 62

Moira's POV

I'm finally back in the station. But I was asked some questions. I mean, I was kidnapped. The police suggested me to raise allegations against him. It's true that he tried to kill me and it's obvious that he harmed me. Yet, I don't think I want to raise allegations. The things are already worse. I don't want to know that he's gonna spend his whole life in jail because of me. And this time for real. I see Vince. He seems kind of concerned.
"Moira, I have to tell you something."
"Go on."
"You're not allowed to take any participation in the case anymore." Wait, WHAT?
"What?"
"You've been a victim." SHIT. SHIT. SHIT.
"But-"
"I know you're in a good shape for the case. Even Mick tried to convince the court, but they didn't listen to him."
"Fuck. Now what am I supposed to do?"
"There's more. It's about your mother." WHAT ABOUT HER?
"My mother?"
"You may get mad at me but I had no choice." That's her diary. Vince, what the fuck?
"That's her diary... Oh my God..."
"I even brought the photo album. Have you seen this picture before?"
"Well, for splendid second. But I haven't... read... the names." Deana? Wait, is this... No... Is this Nikki's mother? AND FRANKIE??? THAT'S HIM??? I-I CAN'T BELIEVE IT.
"Now, read this page and this one."
"Wh-what?" Oh my God. Are you kidding me? Is this a joke? My mother and Nikki's one used to be best friends. I need to find her.

"Vince, do you know where Deana is now?"
"She's living in Seattle."
"I'm taking the album and the diary with me."
"Does he keep in touch with his mother?"
"No."
"You can tell her what son of a bitch he became."
"But firstly, may I talk with him?"
"Usually you're not allowed, but we'll keep it a secret."
"Thank you, Vince. You're the best."
"Moira, one more thing. You'll meet Deana after the court. That means you have to wait for Nikki's sentence."
"Alright then."

He's mad at me. I know it. But I have no time for this.
"Hey Nikki, I have something to show you." Don't roll your eyes like that.
"Nikki, please. Not only I should not be here and now-"
"Wait why?"
"I'm out of the case."
"Out of the case?"
"Sounds impossible but it's the truth."
"You're crossing the line again, wow."
"This is serious. Look at this picture."
"Where did you find that?"
"In my family photo album."
"Your what? What is my mother and I doing in your family album?"
"You see the pregnant woman next to you?"
"Jennifer... Wait, I was a baby. That means you're the baby inside Jennifer's womb. I knew it. I knew it was all meant to happen."
"Did you know about it?"
"No. But now I'm glad I know it."
"You should know that I'm about to pay your mother a visit after you go to jail."
"No. Don't do this."
"I'm not doing that because of you, Nikki. I'm doing it because of mom."
"I still don't think it's a good idea."
"Say what you want. I'm going."
"If she starts asking questions about me, tell her I'm somewhere else, okay?"
"I got it."

"Well, I gotta go, Nikki."
"Well, I- hmm... Nevermind."
"What's the matter?"
"I just- fuck... Just get out. I don't want to get you in trouble."
"Are you sure?"
"Go. We'll talk about it another day." He seems desperate.
"Tell me now."
"I-I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm not the man you deserve. I'm sorry I didn't make you as happy as you have to be. I'm sorry that I don't know how to love you. If I could stop myself from loving you, I would. Not because of you, but because of me. You deserve someone way better than me. I know I'm asking too much but please, don't come and visit me in jail. Move on. Find someone else. I'm not the one for-"
"Enough. You know that I can't. How am I supposed to-"
"You'll find a way. You have to. You can't live like that."
But I can't live not loving you either." I hate myself. I really do. But I don't care about it.
"Moira, I almost killed you."
"So?"
"Doesn't it matter to you?"
"I'm already dead on the inside so..."
"And that's why you should move on. I don't want you to feel like that."
"But you'll be hurt if I leave you. You were whining about it so much."
"That's gonna be my punishment for killing your sister. Now get out of here and live your life."

I had to leave the room. He was getting more desperate each time I speak. Well, at least I'll visit his mother after the sentence. I still can't believe my mother and that woman used to be friends. Nikki hates her so much though. Hmm, she should talk to him. Who knows, maybe she's feeling bad about what she's done. Or maybe Nikki exaggerated a little bit. Fuck I need some sleep. At least I'm not at work tomorrow. The case is in the court and I don't know how long Nikki's gonna be in jail. Wait, we arrested them under other jurisdiction and we didn't even got permission to do those arrests. What if Nikki's sentence can be reduced because of that fact?