Oblivious Heart - (A Male Reader x Rinko Shirokane Fanfiction)

Chapter 12 - Adagaki Shuuna

Shuuna's P.O.V

I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm currently crying in front of the guy I just met a few days ago.

But I know for a fact that Anon-kun is a nice person and wouldn't mind but... I know I shouldn't cause trouble for him.

Ever since I met him, I thought he seemed a bit different from everyone.

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The Adagaki househould was very strict. It wasn't what you would call a happy household. Even so, me and my older brother had to live with my parents. Although, they would often be seen fighting each other.

Both my mom and my dad were very successful doctors. In fact, we have a Hospital in Shinjuku.

My brother being way older than I was when I was a small little child, he was always put under pressure by my parents.

My father would always tell him that he should be successful in the future, so that he can support himself.

While my mother would always tell him that he should inherit the family business instead of going off somewhere else.

Basically, neither of them thought about him and his feelings. Neither of them asked my brother about what he wanted to do with his life.

Except for me.

"Onii-chan! What do you want to be when you grow up?" Little Shuuna asked him.

"Well... I like taking care of kids! Don't you think being a kindergarten teacher would be fun Shuuna? I get to spend time with kids all day! And I get the wonderful opportunity to make them smile! I feel like that would be the best feeling ever!" He said with a smile on his face as he strokes my head.

Nii-san was a hard working person. I didn't realize it at first, but the stress that came from both Mom and Dad always bugged him.

Whenever he's doing something else, I would sometimes sneak up on him to get a good look on his face.

And all the faces he made were the same.

He looked depressed.

But he would instantly light his face up when he sees me. I guess he just didn't want to look pathetic in front of his little sister...

I can't blame him... What could I have done at the time?

He always took the blame whenever I find myself in trouble. Whether it'd be breaking a glass, getting a bruise on body, or whenever I would return home late from playing outside.

I sometimes caught him getting yelled at by my parents for not taking better care of me.

I caught him many times telling my parents that they should just let him inherit the family business and that they should let me live a live that I wanted without any sort of restrictions from them.

Naturally, I didn't like that. I would run up to him while crying and told my parents to stop blaming him for my mistakes.

But he always....and I mean always...

Looked at me with a smile and kept telling me..

"It's gonna be alright Shuuna." He said.

All of that, he carried all of that weight for me.

From highschool up until his college days.

He gave up time with his friends in order to come home early and spend time with me. Because he knows if he doesn't, then I'll be the one getting an earful.

I wanted to grow up faster, so I can become independent and free my brother from his duty of taking care of me but...

That happened.

During a rainy Saturday Night, while he was driving home from school...

Another car crashed onto him while he was waiting for the stoplight to turn green. It was a pretty big crash to.

And after only a mere 20mins of him being taken to the hospital....

He was denounced "Dead on Arrival".

Even if the medical team arrived as fast as they could be, they could not save my brother's life.

Me and my parents rushed over to the hospital, only to see him there.... dead.

His body was already covered. Both my parents dropped and broke down crying.

While I was there.... speechless.

And that was my last memory of my brother.

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Fast forward years later, I got into highschool and got the position of Student Council President.

My goal was to create an environment for my fellow students so they can be what they want, and be who they want.

This isn't only an atonement for my brother, but this is also what I want to do with my life.

And I want to make sure that up there, he's watching me. And I want to make him proud.

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I think, the reason why I was crying is because for the first time, someone told me that they actually appreciate me.

Don't get me wrong, I know that the other students in the council who are working with me as well as my fellow students all admire and respect me.

But... I feel like they sometimes set the hurdle too high for me. They expect too much. I feel like I'm not supposed to make any mistakes. And if I do mess up, they would all turn away from me...

So hearing Anon-kun say that it's okay to make mistakes.... I couldn't do anything but to break down in front of him, as embarrassing as it is to admit.

I'm so glad to have met people like these in my life.... For once, I feel like I can still be me even though I make mistakes....

Because of what this man in front of me said.... I am able to live with myself alongside my mistakes, whithout every worrying that they would leave me alone.

I'm truly thankful for you.... Anon-kun....and of course.... to everyone else....

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"Feeling much better now?" He asked me as he hands me his handkerchief.

I gently take it from him to wipe my tears away.

"Sorry... I don't know what went over me..." I said.

While knowing fully well how much memories rushed back to me in a matter of seconds.

"Look... I don't know what you're going through but... just know that we don't plan on leaving you alone. You can keep it from us and or share it to us when you're ready. But none of us would want to leave you alone....like I said earlier....or something...." He said.

Hehe...

He's a little awkward when it comes to motivating people....

But he passed.

Those words, meant so much to me.

- To be Continued -