Secrecy

Chapter 30:

It had been a few days since I had left. Today was now Valentine's day, the day where in another life I would've been on stage with my band playing the night away. But unfortunately I stood at the back by the entrance watching them play. I would've left sooner but I wanted to see them all together just one last time.

 My eyes softened as I looked over at Cristian. In another life I would've kissed him back and we would've fallen in love with each other. But now he just sat there playing the drums looking so full of despair. What made it worse was that I was the one making the pain in his heart. Which was why out of all three of them, I had left a note for him. So he could find closure.

Not being able to watch this anymore I silently left the restaurant and began making my way towards my car. In another life I would've been happier, I would've been someone being loved and loving someone. But thankfully leaving and seeking a life somewhere new, somewhat excited me.

"Belle," I heard someone shout after me. It was Axel, I could tell by his voice.

I gulped and stopped dead in my tracks. I was supposed to leave without anyone noticing so it could be easier for me and seeing Axel again was going to definitely make it worse.

"Belle." He said again.

I gulped and turned around. "Axel." I whispered.

He then ran to me and hugged me so hard. I stood there shocked but quickly hugged him back. Hugging him so hard.

He then pulled back and met my eye, cupping my face gently. I remembered the last time I had seen him, he looked so heartbroken when I left him.

Don't leave me, he had said.

I dropped my gaze to the floor, feeling guiltier then ever. But nevertheless I pulled out an envelope and handed it to him.

"I trust only you and Grant, so please once you're done with it burn it so no one else can find it." I said. In the letter I had written my new phone number so he could contact me, but I had also made sure to clarify not to call me often.

He nodded. "Thank you." He whispered.

I nodded and placed a soft long kiss on his forehead. "Take care Axel." I whispered, then turned away so I could head back to my car.

I was about to take a step away when someone else suddenly turned me back around, pressing their body against me, holding my face against their broad chest. Instantly I recognized who it was.

Wasting no time, I brought my hand up to his body and hugged him back, not caring that Axel was watching.

Grant then pulled away. "Are you sure you want to do this?"

I smiled softly and nodded. "Yeah. I'll be fine I promise."

He nodded and let me go. But before leaving I threw my body against them both. "I love you guys." I whispered, because that was the truth. Although I was leaving everyone and I had felt so alone the days beforehand. These two where the one's who had won my heart, but I needed to get away and hopefully find myself in my new life. Besides I wasn't capable to love someone in return which was why it was best that I had kept it hidden. Even if it left me heartbroken for not being able to love or be loved. But it was better hidden than destroying their bond and my bond with them. And I could tell...

It wasn't meant to be.

Axel just stood there stunned by my words. I smiled, my eyes full of tears, and took a step back. "Don't forget about me okay." I said my voice breaking.

As I drove away, I broke into tears feeling even more heart broken than before. I hiccuped and sobbed at the red light, but once it turned green I got my shit together. Because this was my reality. I was no longer the chirpy naive girl that had nothing to fear. I was someone in danger so all I could do now was find Joel and eliminate my enemies.

Therefore leaving was better. It was going to keep me safe and keep everyone I loved safe. That was all that mattered and enough for me to lie to myself. So with a heavy heart, I forced myself to drive away.

Goodbye, everyone.

The end.

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