Secrecy

Chapter 29:

"How did you know I was here?" I suddenly spoke as I brought down my book, the night breeze blowing my hair.

"Wasn't that hard to figure out." Axel's answered as he sat down beside me.

"I want to be alone, besides you weren't even with me when I woke up so just leave."

He shook his head, "I'm sorry belle." He whispered, "But no I wont leave. You just don't want to be asked what happened."

I let out a soft sigh and looked up at the moon.

Axel then reached out to hold my hand. "I'm not leaving you, Belle. Especially now."

I gulped and pulled my hand away. "I'm okay." I simply said. I didn't want to be here with him, I had a feeling he was going to be able to reach me and that scared me. I just wanted to be in peace and forget what happened. But honestly it was more than that....I didn't want to cry in front of him, because I knew that's what this would lead to. Me breaking down in tears.

"Belle you can talk to me." He softly said.

I shook my head, feeling the tears begin to form. "I," my voice broke, "He tortured me Axel."I gulped and looked away from his eyes, not wanting him to see what had happened or figure out that the man knew what I was. Axel was most likely already blaming himself for what happened therefore, telling him would just add more to his pain.

"I'm sorry, belle." He said, I could hear the sincerity in his voice.

I shook my head and turned away. "It's no ones fault."

"It is. He wanted to know where I was, didn't he?"

I simply stood silent, knowing that answering him would just hurt him all over again.

"Thank you," He suddenly said.

I glanced over at him in surprise, why was he thanking me? "For what?" I asked.

He gulped. I could see the tears in his eyes glisten under the moon light. "For putting up through that... f-for protecting me. You didn't have too and yet you did. I'm so sorry, I never meant for this to happen to you. I wish you had told them that night if it would've avoided all of this. I-"

He was rambling his heart out and it just saddened me, so I placed my hand on his cheek. "Shh Axel. It's alright. I'm here with you safe and sound aren't I?" My voice quivering as I spoke.

He let out a shaky sigh and pulled me into his arms. I smiled with sadness and hugged him back, cherishing this moment, a small tear running down my face. I sniffed and wiped my face. Axel then pulled away to look at me. Instantly I brought my hands up to my face, trying to hide myself and muffle my sobs.

So we just sat there; him watching me with complete remorse as I sobbed uncontrollably.

I was crying for everything. For what happened to me, for the man finding out, for my mother and most of all for feeling so fucking alone. No one was there for me that night and it was just harsh way of finally figuring that I only had myself to depend on. I cried harder as I realized what the future held for me, I was going to end up all alone.

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My eyes opened, I sat up coughing out what I thought was water and gasping out for air. But instantly I managed to realize it had just been a dream. I sighed and looked over at my window, judging from the light blue skies it was probably six in the morning. All I could do now was get ready for the day, so I went over to my bathroom to freshen up.

When I came out I suddenly heard something tap against my window. I frowned and looked over as I grabbed my knife from under my pillow where I had left it last night and slowly began making my way towards the window.