Greed

9

Lia

"Will she like this?" Mark asked as the 4 of us leave the car. He just got discharged from the hospital and he already planned a lot of things to do.

I still couldn't accept that he's sick and already waiting for death. Nakaka... lungkot.

We've been friends for years. I'm not ready for the day he'll be gone forever.

"Mark..." Samantha trailed as we walk to the house that is being built.

"Hmm?" Mark tilted his head to Sam but just like me, she couldn't find the right words to say.

Ang biglaan.

Hindi katanggap tanggap.

No one wanted to accept it, except for him who was already waiting for the inevitable.

It's heartbreaking for all of us.

"I spent my life's money into this house. I hope she'll like it." Mark laughed bitterly. I can already feel the tears in my eyes wanting to fall.

This is so heavy.

I can't let him go.

Kyle walked towards Mark and patted his shoulder, "What's your plan?"

"Have a chance to give her this."

"You do have a chance."

"Doesn't feel like it."

Iniwas ko ang tingin ko sa kanila at lumayo.

Umiyak ako. Umiyak ako nang umiyak habang naglalakad.

Hindi ko kayang tanggapin.

Hindi ko alam kung matatanggap ko.

Hindi kami binigyan ng chance para paghandaan to.

Nakakatakot...

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"I can't believe Mark has heart cancer. That disease is so fucking rare." Samantha said, trying to lighten up the mood. We just dropped of Mark from his parents' house.

Dahil kagaya namin, hindi rin nila matanggap.

Ni hindi nga magkakaroon ng pag asa si Mark na maka graduate. 2nd year palang kasi siya pero ang dami nang kailangan asikasuhin sa hospital.

Fuck.

None of us talked. We stayed silent. The silence was heavy but it'll be heavier if we spoke.

Kyle dropped me off at my apartment at naiwan sila ni Samantha.

Agad agad akong umakyat sa apartment ko. Gusto ko lang talagang mapag isa.

Even if Mark's a shitty friend sometimes, I love him. He's got his own reasons and I understand that.

But this is just fucking unbelievable.

I stayed in bed staring at objects.

What else can I do?

I closed my eyes and I immediately saw the happy moments I shared with Mark.

We've been friends since I was in Senior High. Siya iyong lagi kong kasama sa mga club, siya din iyong nag introduce sa akin sa mga kaibigan niya na nakakasama ko rin dati sa clubs.

Even before Kyle, Mark was already there.

We fight... we fight a lot. How he's always absent when it comes to me but I was present when it comes to him.

I laughed.

We had such a shitty friendship. Kahit ngayon nga, he never favored me. Lagi lang si Sam, o kaya si Kyle.