Greed

4

Lia

A few days have passed and our semester has officially ended at bakasyon na. Sobra akong nagbababad sa trabaho ko pero kulang pa rin talaga sweldo kaya nagtrabaho na rin ako sa convenience store tuwing weekdays afternoon.

Hindi ko pa nakakausap si Kyle tungkol sa desisyon ko para samin kasi sobrang busy talaga namin. Uuwi ako ng apartment ko, tulog na siya. Gigising naman ako, wala na siya.

Hindi talaga mapagsabay oras namin. We're so busy.

"Li!" Thea called for me as she enter the convenience store.

Kasama niya si Zach at may dala silang box ng pizza. Umupo kami sa mga table sa loob at kumain. Bihira na rin kasi kami magkita kasi ang busy ko talaga.

"Gala tayo sa Sunday," Thea suggested.

"Can't, may work ako sa library."

"Lagi ka naman may trabaho," Zach said.

"Tanga, ang dami kaya niyang utang sa school." Thea pinched Zach's side which made me laugh.

"Oo na! Pero, Lia, ayaw mo sulitin bakasyon?"

"Ewan ko, bahala na." I shrugged and finished the pizza before going back to the counter.

Sabay sabay kaming umalis sa convenience store nung padilim na, didiretso na kasi ako sa McDonald's.

God, everyday is draining.

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The weekends came and I have to work at the library. Kyle was cooking breakfast when I woke up. Nakakapanibago. Usually, when I wake up, wala na siya.

"Hindi na ba tayo matutulog sa unit ko?" Naglagay siya ng fried eggs sa plato ko saka umupo sa harap ko.

I bit my bottom lip, eto na ata opportunity to bring up the subject.

"Kyle," I got his attention.

He smiled and stopped eating for a while. "Lia,"

"I don't want to live together anymore."

His brows furrowed, "What's your reason?"

"Hindi naman alam ng magulang ko na may boyfriend ako at nakikipag live in ako. Nagguilty ako,"

"Why don't we tell them?"

My mouth went agape. Is he serious? "What?"

"Let's tell them."

"Does your family even know I exist?"

"No,"

"And you want me to introduce you to my family?"

"Yes,"

I snickered. The reason why I never introduced him to my family is he's afraid of commitments even for his age. I wanted him to introduce me first before I introduce him.

Oo, masyadong isip bata. But he's the first man I let into my life, and if my family will know his existence, and we're not end game, that will fucking suck.

Hindi na ako nagsalita. I didn't want to start an argument.

Pagkatapos ko kumain, umalis agad ako na ikinagulat ni Kyle. Gusto kong ipaalam sa kaniya na disappointed ako. He's such a douche.

Pagdating ko sa library, nag log out na yung nagbabantay at nag log in na ako.

Hindi pa rin maalis sa isip ko yung pag uusap namin ni Kyle. I really hate him. Wag siyang matutulog mamaya sa apartment ko.

I arranged the tables the students used earlier and arranged a few books. This place really ticks my OCD.

Pagbalik ko sa table ko, meron nang nakapila, magsasaoli ata ng mga libro.