Willing to You

CHAPTER TEN

[LAEL SHAWN]

A phone was ringing loudly somewhere in the room but I couldn't open my eyes because my head was pounding so much that it hurts.

It was so cold that my bare torso almost shivers from the effect. Naalimpungatan ako para hilain ang kumot upang matakpan sana ang hubad kong katawan ngunit imbes na yaon ang makapa ko, isang matigas na bagay at tila humihinga ang naramdaman ko.

Nanigas ang aking mga kamay nang maramdaman ang tila buhok nito, kumakabog pa nang bahagya ang aking puso sa kung ano man ang maaaring nilalang ang nasa aking tabi.

Was it a ghost? Sadako?

May takot man na nararamdaman at kahit pa kumikirot ang aking ulo ay iminulat ko nang dahan-dahan ang aking mga mata.

Tumambad sa aking paningin ang isang katawan ng babae sa ilalim ng kumot na kanina'y hinahanap ko. Nakatagilid ito kaya naman hindi ko masyadong maaninag ang mukha nito dahil na rin sa dim lights sa kwarto. Ganoon na lamang ang aking taranta nang may mapagtanto.

Tang ina, nag-uwi ako ng babae?

This girl looks familiar. Sinubukan kong alalahanin ang nangyayari ngunit mas lalo lamang kumirot ang aking ulo sumabay pa ang ingay ng isang phone. I found it just above the pillow of the girl. Dahan-dahan ko itong inabot ngunit may kamay na naunang kumuha nito.

Laster Sungit Calling...

I saw the screen says.

Laster? Bestfriend ni Vallesteros? Could it be...

My train of thoughts was interrupted when the girl sat up, she casually ended the call without answering it and looked up to me; not really looking bothered at least despite our nakedness. Well, she's not totally bare dahil nakabalot siya sa kumot ngunit malamang ay ganoon din.

I stared at her wide-eyed but she was looking at me calmly, somewhere in her eyes I saw a wicked flicker.

"What the fuck happened?" I asked her, my voice was on edge.

This can't be happening.

No.

Me and Vallesteros had sex? Fuck, no.

Hindi pwede. Si Tate.

Hindi pwedeng malaman 'to ni Tate.

I was winning her back tapos nangyari 'to.

But instead of responding to my question, she just stared back at me.

My anger was arising kaya naman hindi ko na napigilan aking sarili na hablutin ang kanyang mga balikat at yugyugin ito nang marahas.

"Tang ina, sumagot ka! May nangyari ba?!" I yelled at her face.

I saw her tear up pero wala akong pake. Sinubukan niyang kumawala sa aking hawak ngunit mas lalo ko itong diniinan. I saw my hand print starting to be red on her shoulders but I didn't budge.

"L-Lael, n-nasasaktan ako." She said in between her sobs.

Nasasaktan siya? Paano pa yung maaaring maramdaman ni Tate pag nalaman niya ito?

Si Tate na mahal ko.

Umiling-iling ako ng marahas.

"Masakit?! Bitch, paano mo ito nagawa?! Ha?! Pinlano mo siguro ito 'no?!" I said to her loudly.

Panay hulagpos siya at iling ngunit tila panay lamang pula ang aking nakikita ko habang nakatingin sa kanyang mukha. This fucking whore.

I let go of her shoulders from my grasp and pushed her at the headboard. Narinig ko pa ang pagkauntog at paglakas nang hagulgol nito ngunit wala akong maramdamang awa para sa kanya. I saw a taint of blood on the blanket which makes my anger boil even more.

I knew that she likes me. But how dare she?

Napahilamos ako ng aking mukha habang nagngangalit pa rin ang aking damdamin.

"Ang dumi mo. Sobrang dumi mo. Fuck you, Umika Vallesteros dahil napakadesperada mo." Sabi ko sa kanya nang may diin. I made sure to let her feel my disgust for her existence.

I'm fuming mad right now that I just want her to be gone.

She looked up to me behind her tears, she parted her mouth like she was about to say something.

"I-I..W-we..." She tries to explain but I cut her words.

"Don't fucking talk now dahil alam kong puros lang naman kadesperadahan at kasinungalingan ang lalabas diyan sa bibig mo." I said while clenching my teeth.

"Lumayas ka na. Alis. Nakuha mo na yung gusto mo so fcking go!" I yelled at her with my emotion pouring.

Nanginginig itong tumayo sa kama kipkip ang kumot sa kanyang katawan, she grabbed her phone and her clothes and was about to enter the bathroom. I stood up immediately despite my nakedness 'cause I don't give a fuck anymore dahil malamang naeenjoy naman niya. Pinikot pa nga niya ako.

I pushed her on the floor before she could even open the bathroom's door.

Dinuro ko ang kanyang noo.

"You have no fucking right na magbihis. Ginusto mo 'to diba? Ngayon panindigan mo 'tong kahihiyan na ginawa mo. Walk naked outside and let them know I fucked you hard because you've been dreaming about it since we were seven." Nandidiring sabi ko sa kanya.

Hindi makapaniwala ang mga titig nito sa akin bago humagulgol nang pagkalakas-lakas realizing how serious I was.

"Go. Bago ako mismo ang kumaladkad sa'yo palabas." I said not looking at her this time.

I saw her stood up in my peripheral vision. She stood up in front of me, her eyes looking so sad and resolved. I looked at her.

"I loved you. You know that I will do everything for you but you should know me. Mahal kita pero pag dumating yung panahong nagising ka na sa katotohanan, sana...sana tapos na ako non magpaalipin sa pagmamahal ko sayo." She said not letting her sobs choke her words.

I watched her walk through the door and opened it walking outside. Finally walking out of my life.