[UMIKA]
It was already dark when I got home and I came home alone.
Pagbukas ko ng condo ay madilim ang paligid na nagpadagdag sa kabang nararamdaman ko although the thought na wala pa si Lael Shawn also gave me a sense of relief to gather my thoughts.
"Where have you been?" Alingawngaw ng boses mula sa madilim na sulok.
Or so I thought.
Shit, he's home.
Ganoon na lamang ang dagundong ng aking puso ng tuluyan ko nang maisara ang pinto at binalot kami ng dilim at katahimikan.
There he was sitting on the seat in the corner holding a glass with what I think was whiskey. Sa lamig na binubuga ng aircon, I could smell the faint scent of alcohol that he's been drinking.
"Answer me. Where have you been?" I winced at the sliced of his angry tone kaya naman bahagya akong napapikit.
"S-Sa kaibigan k-ko..." It was half true though.
I whimpered with the sudden jolt of pain when he suddenly advanced towards me and grabbed my face forcefully. Nang tingnan ko siya sa mata ay tila nag-aalab ang galit nito.
"A-Aray...nasasaktan ako Lael S-Shawn." I said with tears brimming in my eyes.
He laughed mockingly.
"Talagang masasaktan ka. Where is my son?" He squeezed me rather hurtful kaya naman I sobbed with the pain.
"N-Nasa kaibigan k-ko..." And it's the truth.
Ngunit ganoon na lamang ang panlalaki ng mata ko when he suddenly shoved me on the floor, I looked up at him with a shocked expression.
Suddenly what happened five years ago whip splashed my memory and it evoked the same fear that I had when he urged me to walk outside with only a blanket covering my naked body.
"Liar." He was almost gritting his teeth when he said the word that it almost dripped venom.
Tumayo ako sa sahig at lumapit sa kaniya attempting to explain.
"Lael S-Shawn, I have something t-to say." And I drew a rather shaky breath.
Nanlilisik pa rin ang mga mata nito nang bumaling ng tingin sa akin.
"Oh, yeah? Sasabihin mo ba kung gaano ka kakati?" Agad-agad naman akong umiling-iling sa sinabi niya.
"N-No...I-I..." even I don't know what to say or where to start.
Inabot nito ang balikat ko at ibinalya ako sa kalapit na pader, napaingit naman ako sa kirot nang pagtama ng likod ko rito.
With me sandwiched between him and the wall, it just made my heart to pound harder.
"Hindi ka talaga marunong makuntento, ano?" Before I could even answer him he sealed my mouth with his and assaulted my lips. Hindi tulad nung mga nakaraang halik na pinagsaluhan namin na malumanay ang hagod, this one was punishing that I almost tasted blood in my mouth.
This was like the kissed he gave me that night when he saw us and found out about Iael.
I tried to push him ngunit bumaba lamang ang halik nito sa aking leeg. He bit that sensitive flesh on it and sucked it, I moaned with the sudden bite of pleasure but I still resisted. My hands on his hard chest felt so useless and weak.
Nang mapagtanto kong mas bumababa pa ang halik nito ay mas kumabog pa ang puso ko and this time I tried with all my might to push him which I successfully did. He stilled when he looked at me.
I didn't realize na I was already crying not until pinunasan nito ang basa kong pisngi.
"Shush, I-I'm sorry..." He croaked after taking a looked at me.
His eyes lingered on the side of my neck where he probably left his mark.
Napapikit ako sa takot nang iangat nito ang kaniyang kamay thinking that he was going to hit me but instead he caressed me lightly on that side of my neck where it stings.
I kept my eyes close until I felt him na isinandal ang kanyang noo sa akin.
We were still standing and I'm still silently crying. But I suddenly opened my eyes when I felt him shaking.
I saw him crying too habang nakasandal ito sa akin.
Lael Shawn is crying.
Sa tanang buhay ko ay ngayon ko lamang nakitang umiyak si Lael Shawn, not that hindi sa hindi dapat siya umiyak but because he always looked tough and strong na tila ba wala sa kaniyang bokabularyo ang pag-iyak.
We were both a mess standing on our sala.
I took his knuckles and kissed it. No matter what he did earlier, mahal ko pa rin talaga siya.
Hindi naman nawala. Hindi rin ako napagod.
I buried my head on his chest and hugged his waist. He hugged me as well. The smell of faint whiskey on him assaulted my olfactory.
He was shaking and crying but he refused to let me see him.
I attempted to separate from him ngunit mas hinigpitan nito ang kaniyang yakap sa akin.
I let him poured his heart out and we enveloped ourselves in silence after.
Nang humiwalay ito sa akin, wiping the stained of tears on his cheek ay iginiya ko ito sa direksiyon ng kanyang kwarto.
"You're drunk, Lael. You should rest." I let him lie down on the bed at umupo ako sa tabi niya.
His face looks solemn and sad. I wonder why.
Nakatitig lamang ito sa akin and I stayed until I saw his eyes fluttered close.
This isn't the time to explain yet.
Just I was about to stand up, a hand gripped on my arm and yanked me down on the bed.
"Don't leave. Stay." He said firmly but with his eyes close.
I was there lying on his other side while his arm snaked on my waist like metal band keeping me in place and I did not resist.
The heat radiating on his body lulled me a comfort that sent me also to sleep.
BINABASA MO ANG
Willing to You
RomanceUmika Vallesteros, a girl who is head over heels with Lael Shawn Cordero ever since she was seven years old. She liked or even love him for almost twelve years but the guy doesn't seem to have mutual feelings about her. Until one night, she realize...
