Always (Niall Horan)

Headace

Three hours. Ten minutes and twenty-two seconds.

I was back in homes chapple now one in the morning. My whole body ached and hurt. My eyes were bloodshoot red and stung from crying the whole way here. I thought about going back. Going back to him. But I couldnt. I was still angry. I didnt want to leave but I had too. I need space and all he was doing was babying me . I ignored Harry's calls and texts along with Niall's. I didnt need to deal with that right now. I sat in my car scared to move. Scared my legs would give out benth me and I'd lay on the cold sidewalk not being able to get up or stop crying.

My phone buzzed for the hundredth time. It was from Niall. His text made my heart hurt and the tears sprung to my eyes.

Just please tell me you got there okay love. I'm worried about you still. As much as you dont want to here that. I am and I'm only worrying because I love you so much.

I couldnt just not reply. I know he was worried about me, hell I'm worried about myself to.

I know, I'm sorry you have to go through this. I got here fine. I do love you too. Alot Niall.

I sucked it up and got out the car going to my mums door. My heart was pounding in my chest. The headace I had was awful. Let alone the awful tast in my mouth from throwing up before I left the house. I knocked on the door waiting to see my mum. I did have a key but since it was in the middle of the night I didnt just want to walk in. I heard movment and noies from other side of the door.

MY mum's tired and shocked face said it all, but she notticed my presents. My hair in it's disater pony tail and I probably smelt like shit. My face was red and tear stained also.

''Kenzie! There you are! Harry just called me worried saying you wouldnt answer your phone! He said he tried to call Niall but no answer! What happend? Are you alright?'' I just bursted into tears. I grabbed my mum and she pulled me into the house. I thought I let all of my tears out but I was just getting started. I sobbed with my head in her lap. I felt so weak and vaunerable. My whole body was shaking beyond beleif.

"Shh Kenzie calm down. You need to calm down.'' But I couldnt. I couldnt stop. Everything in my life was compleetly falling apart. I felt hopless. with everything including myself.

"Talk to me.'' I sniffed and caught my breath. I told her everything. How harry came in and I'm now not going to Irlenad and Niall and I's fight. I started sobbing again when I mentiond Niall's sad face as I told him to let me go. My mums face saddens and frowned at me.

"Oh hunny, why did you do that?" I was shocked my own mother wasn't taking my side.

"You think this is my fault!" I was getting angry! Maybe I should have gone to Gemmas

"Mackenzie stop, listen to me." I sighed and sniffer trying to stop crying.

"I don't understand why you got angry hun. Niall is in love with you. He's worried about you because he loves you. He just wants you to be okay. In all honesty your not strong enough yet to meet his family so I agree with Niall." I pushed myself off of her lap crossing my arms over my chest. Was she right?

"I mean think about it, meeting his family is nerve wracking! Your already under a lot of stress and Niall was right you need to relax." I didn't want to say that she was right but I think she was. I was. I was so selfish! I didn't think of it like that.

I guess meeting his family so would be freaking out too.

"Niall is tramitzed by what happen Mackenzie. At the hospital he could think straight. He loves you so much. He's scared to loose you, and you kind of did." The guilt was eating me alive. I felt like I was going to this up all over again. My mum was right Niall was scared to loose me and he probably thinks that he did by me leaving. I felt the tears coming once again.