Always (Niall Horan)

Calm me with your love

For some odd reason this chapter was a draft?? And not published! I just found out now! So I just re-published this!!:)

Finally after almost five hours of being in that hospital I could go. That part was great but the bad part was how much stronger my new med's were then before. I knew I had to take them. Harry unlocked his car leaving me to open the door. I say in the front seat Harry in the driver seat and Niall in the back. My mum and Gem were going to be staying with Harry tonight they took another car.

Speaking of Harry, after him storming out earlier in the evening so just wanted to have a conversation just him and I. It didn't go too well. He finally told me he was sorry for getting angry and said he was just upset which is understandable. But where the conversation took a turn down to hell was when he kept pushing me to know why I had my panic attack. Why did I have so much anxiety all of the sudden. But he figured it out. I didn't want him too but he did.

I couldn't stop the tears from flowing, Harry resurrect me that it would be fine and I believed him. He promised he wouldn't tell why I started to get these panic attacks and so was glad for that. I felt guilty for everything that had happened.

But I could change anything, it happened and I learned my lesson. The car ride back was silent which wasn't very comfortable. I was physically exhausted that medication the doctor gave me made me so tired. My mind was clouded with thoughts and feeling and I couldn't control them. I was left stuck in my head replaying everything that had happened.

"Mackenzie." I looked up to see Harry turning his body to me, the frown on his face told me it wasn't the first time he'd said my name.

"Yeah?" I noticed the car had stopped and we were at Nialls place. My car door was opened along with Niall holding it open. "Oh sorry." I blushed and gave Harry a hug goodbye.

"I'm sorry Harry, your birthday was totally ruined. I'll make it up to you." What an awful birthday to have, here he was turning twenty and the whole night he ended up in the hospital with me.

"We can talk later okay? Get some sleep." I nodded and let go of him. Niall held out his hand for me to grab which I gladly accepted. I was so tired I could fall asleep standing up. Niall unlocked his front door before pushing it open.

I was glad to be back home, in my own bed. I tugged Nialls hand immediately up the stairs. Our place was dark and neither of us bothers to put on any lights. It was two in the morning both of us so tired. When we got to our rock I took off my clothes putting on pj pants and a long sleeve shirt, Niall did the same but taking off his clothes. I brushed my teeth and met Niall in bed. He was already in bed under the covers waiting for me.

We hadn't said much to each other at all, but part of that was because I was so stuck in my head to say much. I climbed under the covers my head laying on Nialls bicep.

"You're okay Kenzie." His voice was soft and soothing. His arm was wrapped around my waist hugging my body to him. I shut my eyes enjoying the warmth he brought me

"Thank you Niall."

"For what?" I sighed and opened my eyes

"Just-being there tonight and helping me."

"Of course Kenz, your so stressed out and it's making me nervous for you." He said sincerely.

"Don't I'm fine." I told him, I couldn't have him be worried for me.

"You need to relax baby." His body was close to mine his lips almost touching mine. His warm breath fanned my face. The things he would do to me drove me over the egde. He did calm me down, all I wanted was him.