F R A G I L E

Dear Uranus

I found myself panting above the pale sand

my breathe stop blowing the cold winter

and my jacket teared with burned holes

i found myself swimming in the cold water 

and the pieces of ice pierced through my skin

I kept swimming until i reach your castle 

and i found myself seeking your smile

on how strong i swam across the hurt. 

I found myself destroying the map to your castle

I found myself stop spending time in cold winter

I  trailed my perfect sailing scores, 

And im unsurprised to realize, 

I've always been this bored. 

And so I walk alone above the cold snow

And I'm unsurprised to see crimson spied my trails, 

and I watched you crumble, 

Maybe because I'm your first,  

But sometimes I want to be the crimson of gryffindor, 

And not the golden of lion. 

Always the fool,  always the noble, 

when the crimson dried out

my skin glitter with a blue hue

like your love i can taste in the catalyst of earth

you would lay me down and mourn me

and when you return to your castle

you will mourn not because you knew me

But because you never know me. 

And your memories of me

are the purplish glitter of midnight stars. 

All your knights form a shadow around your enraged silhouette. 

You say, you'll never understand 

how I keep choosing golden

chasing the euphoria of pedestal

too different from you

But all these times

I just keep all the burn away from you

The truth taste like copper on your tounge

That my identity revolves around the golden carpet 

and the glitters that is pouring from you

-a.

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