My Regrets (Ran Mitake x Male Reader)

Chapter 23

*Mr (L/N)'s Letter*

(Y/N), in advance, I'm sorry for putting all of this into a letter. I'm a coward for not saying this to you in person.

I haven't been a great father to you. When you were born, from the bottom of my heart, I really am happy to have you in my life. I would always hold you after I came back from work and you would always reach your hands out to me for attention.

By the time you started going to kindergarten, more work started piling over me and I was starting to spend less time with you. Don't doubt for a second that you and your mother were in my mind when I was coming straight back home. Unfortunately, by the time I got back, you were already asleep in your bed with your mother telling me to keep it down. I felt ashamed that I wasn't able to spend any time with you.

I would then start coming home late with your mother, telling me how you spend your time throughout the day. Honestly, I wished I could've been there with you. When she told me you made 5 new friends at the park, I was overjoyed. Though a little surprised that they were all opposite genders, that didn't change the fact that I was happy when you made new friends.

At this point I was starting to feel discouraged about our relationship whenever I was around you, knowing that I don't have time to interact with you. I felt myself distancing away from you, feeling that my only role is to keep working to support the family.

By the time you were about to enter high school, the manager told me I had to move to Shibuya cause of my work, and I had to take you all with me. I knew you were disheartened by this. When your friends came to see you off, the one person that stood out the most to me was the girl named, Ran. She seemed really fond of you. I imagined you two were pretty close and that you were losing a really good friend.

I was a little worried about you when you were at your new school, but you managed to make two new friends there in a matter of days.

A few years passed and this was the point I learned that you went out participating in events, singing up on stage. When I heard it, it reminded me of my singing career back in the day.

Your mother and I never told you this, but it's how we got together in the first place. It's also the reason why I said you should stop.

I was once working in a certain music industry, where I used to sing in events for them. The company never exactly cared how I felt, as they just took advantage of my singing ability. All they cared about was how much they could draw in a lot of "paying customers." Hearing that made me infuriated.

So I left the company by throwing my resignation form right at them, ending my singing career as a whole. But I didn't care since I didn't want to work for a company that's just in it for the money.

I didn't want someone to take advantage of your singing abilities and take the same path as I did. I know it's your decision to choose your path, but I couldn't stand the thought of some company using you for their own selfish gains.

But on that day when I was at home. You were determined to keep singing to see where that path takes you. I could tell how serious you were when you gave me those tickets. I then thought maybe you will have a different outcome compared to what I went through and maybe everything will work out. For the first time in ages, you made me feel like a father again.

This letter had gone on long enough, so I'm giving you a little gift from the past before it went downhill, this is one of your mother's favorites. (Y/N), I'm sorry for this pathetic of a father not raising you when you needed it most, but I'm very proud of who you've become and my only wish is to see how far where your path takes you. You have great friends who cherish you and your mother and I will always be rooting for you. Remember that.