Oddinary// Hyunlix & Minsung FF// Editing

Chapter Foive: Mom's Life

(A/N for you Hyunbokkie09150320 Im sorry you've joined me at the height of my angst writing!)

I woke up with a start and I could hear something alien coming from downstairs. It was a sound I hadn't heard in the longest time.

Laughter? I rubbed my head and wondered how the fuck I had gotten home. I slowly moved until I was sat up and placed my feet on the floor. It was definitely my bed and my shoes were placed carefully by my nightstand. Had Jisung managed to carry me?!

"Hey, you're awake." Leeknow's voice was a comfort in the dark of the night. I nodded and smiled. Then it hit me. Was he in my house or was I dreaming?!

"Why are you in my room?" I asked quietly. This was the weirdest coke trip I had ever been on.

"Ah, yeah. You uh, you had a bad trip my man. Come on, the others are downstairs." He offered his hand to me and I took it gently. I followed him down the stairs and the laughter got louder.

It was my Mom. I frowned and Leeknow smiled back at me before entering the lounge. I stepped in and saw Jisung, Hyunjin and my mother all sat around talking.

"Lix! Are you ok my boy?" Mom stood and came to fuss over me. She checked me over and hugged me tightly.

"Yeah, I'm fine Mom. Sorry for worrying you." I murmured as I wrapped my arms around her. She rubbed my back and gestured to an empty space in between Hyunjin and Jisung. I slid in between them and Hyunjin smiled at me.

"I'm glad you're awake." He said softly. I smiled slightly and looked at Jisung. I could see a bruise on his neck and I frowned at him. He quickly saw where my gaze had landed and covered his neck. He took my hand in his and squeezed it softly to let me know it was ok. I smiled sadly and looked around the full room. This was weird.

"So what's going on here?" I asked quietly. Everyone exchanged looks and I raised an eyebrow at them all. "Come on, I'm not some delicate princess who needs protecting." I stated.

"If you say so, Ariel." Leeknow winked at me and I flipped him the bird. Mom slapped my knee gently and giggled like a school girl. I looked at her like she was crazy. She was never this giddy anymore.

"Lix, I haven't really told you and Jisung. I didn't want to hurt you. But I met someone." I was completely taken aback at the admission.

Mom had been dating again?

"Don't look so concerned. We've only had a handful of dates. But um, Mr Lee has a similar family to ours. Leeknow, Hyunjin do you mind if I tell him dears?" She asked. I watched as they both shook their heads and smiled. "Hyunjin was adopted too, and Leeknow is his biological son. I met them a few days ago. I had no idea you were all friends. It's fantastic news though. It means I don't have to worry about introductions." I blinked and was totally floored.

Dad had barely been buried six months. Mom had already moved on. I clenched my fist and frowned.

"Did you two know?" I asked coldly. The mood shifted in the room, as everyone sensed the anger that was about to erupt out of me like a volcano.

"F-Felix." Jisung said quietly as he tried to hug me. I shoved him hard and he yelped. I stood up and closed my eyes. I clenched my jaw and took a deep breath inwards.

"Answer my FUCKING QUESTION. DID YOU KNOW?!" I picked up my full coffee mug and sent it flying into the wall. It exploded and coffee sprayed around the room.

"LEE FELIX!" Mom shouted. I turned and glared at her.

"And you! How could you do this?!? Dad isn't even cold in the ground yet!" I shouted. She looked petrified and hurt beyond recognition at my words. I kicked the coffee table and sent items flying off of it. I walked to the door and slammed it loudly behind me as I left. I stormed to my bedroom and slammed the door.

Why didn't they say anything?! They knew all of my circumstances and never said a fucking word. I punched the wall and yelled in anger. I ripped my shirt off and pulled my pants off. I threw myself into my bed and pulled my blanket over my head. I curled up into a ball and began sobbing loudly.

Why was my life such a fucking mess?

The door opened some time later and closed quietly. I felt my bed sink as someone sat and a warm hand was placed on my shoulder.

"What the fuck do you want?" I asked with a shaky voice.

"Nothing. Just wanted to make sure you were OK." His voice was low and soft and I frowned.

"Well I'm not. I trusted you guys and you didn't tell me anything." I murmured. He sighed and pulled the blanket off of my head. He looked away once he saw I was almost naked and placed his hand lightly on my shoulder.

"I'm sorry. It wasn't our place Felix. We didn't want to upset you." He said softly.

"Well I am upset. No. I'm not. I'm done. I'm so broken and my life is trash. I have a drug habit, no Dad, and a Mom and brother I barely even know." I said sadly. My heart was so sore I was convinced it would stop any second.

"You have friends. I mean... I know we don't talk much, but you're my friend. I wouldn't have brought you home if you weren't." He said softly.

"Hyunjin?" I said as tears began reforming, and threatening to fall again. My anger had subsided and now all I felt was anguish.

"Yeah Felix?" He replied softly. He squeezed my arm gently.

"Can you get Jisung? I need someone to hold me." I admitted. He frowned and began taking his shoes off carefully.

"Gimme a sec." He said quietly. I sniffed and rubbed my eyes.

"What are you doing?" I asked.

"You need a hug. I'm not leaving you alone for a second." He said quietly. He pulled his last shoe off and laid down next to me. I turned and stared at him. His face was sad and riddled with guilt. He held his arms out and I couldn't even refuse. I needed someone to comfort me.

"Thank you." I buried my face into his chest and he pulled the blanket around us. He held me tightly and gently rubbed my back. I sobbed into his chest and clung to his shirt.

"I'm so sorry Felix. I'm so sorry for everything you've been through." He stroked my hair and I closed my eyes tightly. I just needed to feel OK again. His warm embrace was better than I ever imagined it would be.

"I'm so broken Hyunjin. I don't know how to fix myself. Everything is too much and the voices won't stop. I want to be ok and I can't." I whispered.

"It's ok. Everything will be OK. I'm your friend. So is Leeknow. Jisung loves you and so does your Mom. We're all gonna be here for you Felix. Try and rest. You're exhausted." He said softly.

I closed my eyes and tried to forget the day. My head was spinning and all I wanted was my Dad to walk in and make it all OK again.

I missed him more than I ever knew I could miss someone. Hyunjin held me close to him and I heard him sigh heavily.

"I'm sorry for losing it down there." I murmured quietly to him.

"Hey Felix, if I tell you something now, can you promise not to freak out when your Mom tells you?" He asked quietly. "I know it's not my place, but your Mom has been really kind to Leeknow and I and I don't want her to get hurt again." He murmured. I frowned and guilt washed over me.

"I'll apologise to her for what I said. I shouldn't have said it." He nodded slightly.

"Your Mom and My Dad wanna move in together. I heard them talking the other night."

My heart wrenched. Did this mean we would be step brothers?

"What the fuck is my life anymore."

"It's gonna be ordinary again. I think you need it." He said softly.

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