Oddinary// Hyunlix & Minsung FF// Editing

Chapter Twenty Nine: Felix and Minho

I sat on the floor with the bottle of the strongest vodka I could buy and chugged it. Minho and I had just finished a 'show' and escaped to our abandoned building. It felt like the only place we got peace these days.

Hyunjin and Jisung were permanently angry or devastated and both of us had to stay strong for them. No matter how much we wanted to break.

"Ugh, I'm exhausted." Minho broke the silence and offered a joint to me. I took it and lit it up. I took a long drag and allowed the smoke to drift lazily from my nose.

"I feel like I need fifty showers to get over that." I murmured. I took another long drag and offered it to my brother.

"Don't take this the wrong way Lix, but at least it was you. It's so much better than having one of them..." he stopped talking and we both cringed to our very core.

It was like we were the only ones who would ever understand each other. No one got it. They weren't going through this with us.

"How much longer do you think we'll have to do this?" I asked as I took another drag. Minho shrugged and scratched the back of his head.

"I mean, I started when I was twelve. So who knows?" He murmured. I nodded and my hands found another bottle of vodka. I unscrewed the cap and began sipping.

"Do you think Jisung and Hyunjin will be mad if we tell them we fucked?" I asked quietly, trying to conceal the sadness in my voice. I felt like I had betrayed Jin in the worst way, and I didn't know if telling him was even a good idea or not.

"It's not like we did it for fun Lix. We were forced. I would exactly call it fucking." He replied quietly. I screwed my face up and shook my head.

"If we call it anything else it becomes real. I don't like that." I said softly. Silence descended again, and other than a few birds twittering in the trees as the sun rose, a sound could not be heard.

"How are your night terrors?" He finally asked. I shrugged.

"I mean that's the only thing about the lack of sleep that is good. I don't really get them right now. How's everything with you?" I asked. He shrugged.

"Shit, mate. Jisung is barely talking to me, and I sell my body for my Dad." I nodded and frowned. I felt compelled to comfort him. I lifted my arm and offered it out to him. He slowly slid across the wall and flopped into my side. We were both broken and I wasn't sure if we would ever be fixed again.

"Jisung is hurting. He's strong, but he's also a petty bitch when he's mad. I promise you, you'll both make it through this. He loves you though Min. I've never seen him so passionate about anyone before. He worships you."

"There's nothing worth worshipping Lix." He said sadly. I slapped his arm gently and frowned down at him with my lips pursed tightly together. My eyes narrowed and I couldn't understand why he couldn't see the light he had brought into my brothers life.

"Shut the fuck up Min. I don't know anyone who would do the things you do to protect their family and boyfriend. Everything about you is worth worshipping. Besides, look how easily you got us both talking again." I pointed out to him.

"Thanks Lix. I'm glad you're around. I would be losing my mind without you." He said quietly.

"Same. It sucks that we're here, but I'm glad we're together Min." I mumbled. He wrapped his arms around me and I did the same. I rested my cheek lightly on the top of his head and it felt odd. Leeknow and I usually just harassed each other, or bickered, but we both understood what was needed. Kindness and compassion.

"How's everything with you and Jin anyway? Jisung told me you got together. But you never officially announced it." He said with a slight chuckle.

"Well yeah, things are, going. I mean I adore him, and he's perfect," I gushed. "But... Things are strained. Y'know, in the bedroom." He nodded and sighed.