Oddinary// Hyunlix & Minsung FF// Editing

Chapter Thirty Nine: Surviving Suicide

I woke up from the deep sleep I had sorely needed. My whole body was sore and I felt like trash.

I was still alive. That sucked. Hyunjin's face drifted into my blurry vision and I could see he was a mess. His usually tidy long hair was messily arranged around his face, and his swollen eyelids were bright red. I felt bad that I had dragged him into my life at the worst time.

I had allowed him to fall for me when I couldn't even like myself. This was unfair on him, and I didn't want him to suffer because of me. I lifted my stiff heavy arm and rested it on his head as gently as I could.

Turned out it was more of a slap and his eyelids snapped open.

"S-Sorry Jin... I didn't mean to wake you." I said apologetically. He lifted his head and tucked one side of his hair behind his ear. It framed his beautiful angular face perfectly. His tongue darted across his pink lips, and his long slender fingers rubbed at his red, very sore looking, eyes. I noticed some cuts on his knuckles and frowned.

"It's ok Lix. I nodded off. Sorry." His sexy sleepy voice always got me. If I wasn't feeling half dead, I would happily fuck him right now.

"What happened to your hand honey?" I asked as he lowered it. His deep brown eyes danced over his own broken skin, and he shrugged slightly.

"I got into it with him. I couldn't stop myself Lix. He's done so much damage-" his voice cracked, it was thick with emotion and I swallowed hard. He had actually fought with his dad?!

"Please don't cry my precious Jinnie. We're gonna get him eventually." I tried to reassure him. "Th-This is my fault. I stopped taking my meds."

"No it's not! Don't you ever say that!" His face flushed with anger and hurt, and his lips were quivering with emotions he couldn't control. I wished I could take the hurt away.

"J-Jin, I've been thinking and maybe we should, you know, cool things off. I don't want you getting hu-" He silenced me by pressing his plump, supple lips to mine. I felt my stress melt away and closed my eyes. His huge hands cupped my face and made me feel so safe it was as though everything that was going on, drifted away from me.

He pulled his lips away and his pressed his forehead to mine. His beautiful almond shaped eyes were searching my face, and his mouth was slightly open. He was so confident and sure of himself, and his amazing good looks, that he already knew the answer to the question he was about to ask.

"Still wanna try and break up with me?" He smirked and his dimple appeared in his cheek. His tongue appeared between his perfect teeth and slowly travelled across them. My whole body shivered in anticipation.

"O-Only if it means you kiss me like that again." I said softly. He pressed his lips to mine again, more gently this time and I realised that I was being stupid. Hyunjin wasn't just some high school crush I wanted to make out with.

He was mine. I would never be able to stop myself from loving him. Even if I wanted to. I needed him like flowers need water when they wilt. I needed him like there had always been a drought inside my soul, and he was the cool rain, here to replenish me and bring life back into my empty heart.

"Now, don't talk like that again, or you're on a sex ban you little psychopath. Got it?" He smiled softly at me and I couldn't help copying him.

"Why would you even joke about that? Are you bullying me?" I gave him the biggest puppy dog eyes and jutted out my lower lip. He pressed his long forefinger to my mouth and smirked.

"Absolutely." He whispered seductively. He gently bit his lower lip and sucked at it. A heavy breath escaped his mouth and tingling spread through my entire body. He was such a fucking tease when he wanted to be.