Oddinary// Hyunlix & Minsung FF// Editing

Chapter Fifty: Broken

I tried to regain my bearings as I panted. I was dizzy, and I could see two of him, sat in the corner, sobbing. I stood and slowly made my way over to the weeping mess he had become.

"Come here my little Angel." I whispered as I sat in front of him. We needed to clean up before we got into bed. He refused to let me touch him and I furrowed my brows at him.

"D-Don't touch me. I'm so broken." He whispered. I sighed and forced him into my arms. I lifted him, and felt the sting on my broken skin as his body contacted mine. He buried his face into my neck and I grabbed a blanket. I wrapped it around us in case anyone was still awake. I didn't want them seeing this.

"Let's get cleaned up sweetheart." I whispered as I pressed my lips to his cheek lightly. I headed to the bathroom and carefully placed him down. I took a warm washcloth and began cleaning his hands and body with the loving attentive care he deserved right now.

The problem was I was terrified. Not of him, but of my own feelings about what had just happened.

I had enjoyed every single second of his rage filled affection.

"I'm sorry Jinnie." He whispered as I carefully washed his bloody knuckles and wiped the remaining evidence of our intense session from his skin.

"What for my little ray of sunshine?" I asked as I cupped his face. His eyes travelled over my body and he pulled away, seemingly disgusted at what he had done.

"This." He mumbled quietly. I chuckled and pulled his head into my body.

"Lix, do you honestly think I would be stood here right now if I didn't enjoy that?" I asked as I pressed my lips to his head.

"Y-You did?" He asked in the softest sweetest voice.

"Lix, my God. If we hadn't just finished I would want to do it all over again my baby. I mean, maybe with lube next time. But it was incredible." I reassured him as I ran my fingers up and down his spine.

"I thought you would hate me." He whispered against my skin as he pressed gentle kisses against the injuries he had given me.

"Why would I do something silly like that?" I asked quietly as I enjoyed his more gentle touch.

"Because, I hurt you. Just like I do with everyone I get close to. Like I did with Jisung, a-and with Dad." His voice cracked and I squeezed him tightly to me. His mind was in such a dark place and I didn't want him to go there. Though I couldn't blame him.

"Don't be silly. You could never do anything to push me away. You'll have to try harder than that to get rid of me." I stated factually. He pulled away and looked up at me, with wide tearful eyes that were sad enough to break my heart.

"I love you so much Jinnie. I'm sorry for everything that happened tonight. I shouldn't have shouted at Leeknow or fought with Jisung." I stroked his face and nodded softly as I listened to him.

"It's ok baby, tomorrow is a new day. I'm not gonna love you any less, and Jisung did and said things that were wrong too. You're both hurting." I said as I wiped some stray tears from his eyes. He sniffed and half smiled up at me.

"Please, I need to hear you say it back." He whispered, as tears threatened to fall once more.

"Of course I love you my delicate little flower. You're my world. I couldn't stop loving you if I tried." He buried his face into my chest again and began shaking as he sobbed. This was all fear. Currently, everyone he loved was either dead, out to hurt him, or had told him to kill himself.

He had acted out to try and push me away. It wasn't going to work. I was more in love with Lee Felix than I had ever been before.

"Can we go to bed?" He asked. I quickly cleaned myself up with Felix's help and we headed back to our room with the blanket draped around our shoulders.

"OH MY FUCKING GOD." Jeongin screamed and covered his eyes at the sight of us. I quickly dove in front of Felix to cover him, and he pulled the blanket fully around us.

"Yah! You scared the shit out of me!" I yelled angrily.

"Why are you both naked?!" He yelled back with his eyes squeezed shut.

"Like you and Chris have never fucked before!" Lix chimed in. Suddenly the hall was bathed in light and three more pairs of eyes joined. Lix was desperately trying to cover my body, clearly embarrassed and worried at what everyone would think if they saw me in this state.

"Why are you hiding yourselves so desperately?" Seungmin asked with a raised eyebrow as he folded his arms across his chest. Changbin placed his arm around his shoulders and stared intensely at us.

"You can't see me!" I stated quickly. "You might fall in love and then Lix will be jealous!" They all burst into laughter and I smiled at them over my shoulder. We awkwardly, and with great difficulty, manouvred back into the room we had exited. Felix closed the door with his butt and leaned against it. Letting out a sigh of relief.

"That was close." He whispered as we heard them calling us weird, amongst other things.

"God those two are on a whole new level of gay." I heard Chan state with a laugh. I banged on the door next to Felix's head.

"Your behaviour is so ugh!" I called through the door, illiciting more laughter. I heard the doors close and I smiled at Felix as he wrapped his arms around his naked body.

"Thank you Jinnie." He murmured as he slowly approached. "Does it hurt much?" He asked as he began examining my body.

"Lix, loads of people are into this kind of stuff. Don't worry I'm fine. If I wasn't I would tell you, OK?" I cupped his face and brought it up to mine as I placed a soft kiss on the tip of his small nose. He smiled slightly and gently wrapped his arms around my waist.

"It doesn't mean I'm not gonna worry. I got a bit carried away." He murmured as he pressed a soft kiss to my neck.

"So next time, we come up with a safe word. That was the only thing I didn't enjoy. I'm happy to do this kind of thing with you, but we need a safe word OK?" I said softly as I toyed with his hair.

"What about ramen?" He said with a small chuckle. I couldn't help giggling at him. Trust him to be thinking about food at a time like this.

"Ramen is good. I like it."

"Let's go to bed. I need to hold you Jinnie." He whispered. I turned the light off and we slowly made our way over to the bed. He crawled in and I laid down next to him. I held my arms out, but he pulled me into his instead. I smiled and buried my face into the crook of his neck as I gently pressed my lips to his skin.

"I'll make up with Jisung tomorrow." He said as he tangled his fingers into my hair and began gently toying with it as he often did.

"OK baby. I'll be right by your side OK?" He nodded and kissed the top of my head softly. I closed my eyes and pressed my body to his. His skin was soft and warm and I needed to feel it against me.

"There is one thing I'm looking forward to Jinnie." He murmured in a sexy, sleepy, low tone.

"And what's that?" I asked quietly as I enjoyed enjoyed feeling of his warm breath spreading over my skin.

"You're not getting away with topping me all the time now I know you enjoyed tonight." I laughed and shoved him gently as he grinned down at me in the darkness.

"Go to sleep you little pervert." I said as he pulled me back into his body.

"Goodnight Jinnie. I love you." He whispered. I pressed one final kiss to his lips before settling myself in his warm safe embrace.

"I love you too." I murmured.

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OK that was so cute. I love Hyunlix.

Ndkdngngmf

Get ready, we're heading into the harder parts of the book soon!

Bring tissues is all I'm gonna say!

Ilysm. Thank you for reading!