A Beginners Guide To Falling In Love

09

1. Younger~Seinabo Sey (acoustic)
2. I don't even know your name~Shawn Mendes
3. The sea-Night version~MØ
4. Red in the grey~MØ
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One thing I know for sure is that I now definitely like Brad, but I know that as soon as I leave I will be confused again, and ruin it all, like last time. But we did get further than last time. I'm glad that in this situation a second chance has existed, and the fact we have been able to get over the last problem we faced.

The moment his lips leave mine, I don't know what to say and neither does he, but we don't stand awkwardly in silence, at least I don't find it awkward, but if he does then that's awkward. This is the weirdest moment I have ever faced in my life. Then again most of the after moments are strange, you feel numb and don't know if what you just experienced was real.

As long as I'm happy that's all that matters, am I happy? Is he happy? Maybe the tables have turned and he regrets what just happened. But I regretted what I did, because I didn't kiss him like he wanted last time.

What if this is all over now, because I have him what he wanted.

For fucks sake Hannah it was just a kiss, get over it.

"I'm sorry," he says breathing heavy.

"For what?" I ask.

"Being a dick to you." He replies.

"Shut up Brad." I say and smile.

"Seriously Hannah," he frowns.

"Well for what it's worth I'm sorry as well then." I tell him.

"Let's just enjoy this moment." He says and I nod. "At least while it lasts." He says quietly at the end, so I pretend to not hear it.

"I saw the note on my laptop." I tell him.

"Good." He says.

I didn't expect him to reply like that, I was waiting for an excuse or awkward moment, or maybe even him to have been embarrassed or regret it, but no.

"I'm guessing you probably want to come inside, without being ambushed." He smiles.

"That would be nice." I reply and try to hold back my smile.

I follow him through to the lounge and sit beside him, after he does and motions towards the spot beside him.

"I don't want things to be awkward anymore." He says slowly taking my hand.

"Neither do I." I reply. "Let's just make it like before."

"Before the party but after the first week of when we met." He says.

"That's a few days then." I laugh.

"I guess." He grins.

"Let's just pretend we've been friends for a year then and that nothing's ever happened." I say.

"Friendships like that only exist in films or for very lucky people." He replies.

"I guess we're very lucky then." I tell him.

"I guess." He replies.

There's a quick loud knock on the front door and my head turns in that direction and Brad gets up to answer it. I stay sitting and wait for Brad.

After about ten seconds I decide to move closer to the door of the room I currently occupy and listen out to hear who it is.

"Can I come in?" I hear the voice.
I scan my brain for a few milliseconds and realise that, that is James's voice.

"Not really, I'm kind of busy." Brad replies.

"Fine, I'll tell you now quickly then." James says and continues. "Do you know if you can still come over tomorrow, I will earn you that Hannah's going to be there."

I back away from the frame as I realise this conversation is nothing worth listening to.

After a few minutes of sitting in silence waiting for Brad he reappears and sits back down beside me.

"I think I should go now," I say and begin to stand up, only to be stopped by Brad.

"Please stay." He replies desperately.

"Fine, but only for a little while," I tell him and am pulled into an embrace.

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After watching two films together, well sort of more like watching it while Brad explained everything that happened, even though I understood it, but I loved his voice so I let him continue.

"One more film?" He asks.

"Um, sure." I say.

"You know what lets just talk, films are overrated." He replies.

"What shall we talk about?" I ask.

"I don't know, but let me get you some food first, do you like pasta?" He asks and I nod.

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After we talked about brads insecurity toward the band James insisted he joined and how good his cooking was I decided to get going, as it reached eleven.

He walked me to the door and I quickly put my shoes on and slowly open the door, not wanting to leave. I turn back around and face him, he leans in and hugs me, he leans back still holding me and I still hold him and our faces aren't even an inch apart. We lean in nearly at the same time and as soon as our lips rejoin from earlier everything become a heated rush of emotions. My hands are in his hair and his are at the small of my back keeping me as close as I possibly can be to him. In each moment we share I never get too close to him that it becomes suffocating, I always feel to far away from him, and in this one moment I feel everything. His laugh, his dimples and his kindness, I don't want to ever lose this, even though I'm certain I will as I usually fuck everything up, but I won't this time.

He slowly and gracefully pulls away leaving a trial of kisses down my jaw to my neck, I instantly know what's coming and a quiet moan escapes my lips as he finds my sweet spot, leaving a mark. He comes back to my lips for when small peck and leaves me wanting more, but instead we just return to a simple embrace, then let go.

"I'll see you later," he says smirking.

"Bye," I reply hiding my face, because I'm blushing like mad and my lips are swollen and sting slightly.

I walk out the door and am instantly faced with a cold flash of wind, luckily it's only a short walk.

"You're a hot mess," Brad calls out laughing and I turn to face him and start laughing myself, because let's face it, he's right.

"Thanks Brad," I shout back still laughing and then enter my own home, feeling a whole mix of good emotions.

As I walk through the door my mum walks straight into the hallway.

"I was getting worried," she says as she appears.

"No need, I was just talking with Brad and we lost track of time." I lie, well partly because we did talk.

"Oh, okay." She says. "You might want to get some rest, it's getting late."

"I know, I will, by the way I'm meeting up with James tomorrow and the boys." I tell her.

"Okay," she says then goes to exit the room and turns at the doorway. "Nice hickey."

I run up to my room embarrassed not wanting to face my parents and see what they have to say, negative or not.

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I wake the next morning and look over to my phone to see a text left from Brad and James.

From James:
Morning hope you haven't forgotten I'm coming to pick you up at eleven for the band meeting today. Xx

From Brad:
Good morning beautiful, heard your coming to our band meeting this morning, do you want a lift? Xxxxx

I quickly reply to their messages and get ready for the day, still smiling from brads text. It's always the cheesy romance things that makes a girl happy, no matter how overrated everyone says it is.