A Beginners Guide To Falling In Love

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Songs
1.haunt//bed~The 1975
2.no type~Zayn Malik & Mic righteous
3.someone new~Banks
4.sedated~Hozier

We walk into the cinema together and Brad leads me towards the desks where we get the tickets and obviously food. I reach into my purse to get some money out but Brad takes ahold of my hand moving it away and looking into my eyes.

"My treat." He says, using his other hand to close my purse. "Okay?"

"Okay." I say, luckily I'm not a easy blusher but if I was I'd be a tomato right now.

"What do you want?" He asks now with his arm around me.

"Whatever your having." I reply.

"Well, I'm having salted popcorn, if you like that?" He asks.

"Yeah," I say.

"What drinks would you like?" The man at the desk asks.

"I'll have a coke, and you?" Brad looks over to me.

"I'll have the same." I say.

When we're done ordering we walk through to the screening room and I follow Brad to our seats and we wait for the film to begin.

"What's up with your friend Chloe?" Brad suddenly asks as the ads begin.

"I don't know, I guess she was just excited today because we haven't seen each other in a while." I tell him.

"You didn't seem so excited." He comments.

"Well, I guess you could say that." I reply.

"Why?" He asks shifting in his seat.

"I just didn't seem to miss her after I left and even when we were friends she always pushed me into doing things I didn't want to do, you know?" I say.

"Yeah, I know." He replies.

"I think the films about to start." I tell him and he places his hand in mine as I begins.

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When the film ends me and Brad leave the cinema and make our way back to his car, but he stops halfway.

"Do you want to get dinner?" He asks.

"Isn't it a bit late?" I say, looking at the clock on my phone.

"We could just get a dessert or something," he suggests.

"Okay." I reply and we walk in the other direction.

We arrive at some restaurant I don't know the name because I didn't check the sign as we walked in, but it seems nice.

"Table for two." Brad says and the waiter leads us to a table.

She hands us the menus and then walks off leaving us alone.

"What are you getting?" I ask Brad curiously.

"I don't know I was about to ask you." He says smiling.

"Oh, well I like the sound of the chocolate cheesecake but I also like the sundae one as well." I tell him.

"I could get one and you could get the other and we share?" He suggests.

"Are you sure?" I ask.

"Yes, it's only a dessert anyway." He grins.

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We were walking now, I don't know where, we were supposed to be going back to his car and going home, but we decided not to. I was way over curfew, but it didn't matter, all that mattered was that I was with him. Walking down a path with trees and the odd lamppost lighting the way. I wouldn't say everything was perfect, we weren't talking, just holding hands and walking, the wind had a bitter cold edge to it and if it weren't for the lights we would be completely swallowed by the darkness of night. It was more pleasant and one of those hazy memories you would have, when you looked back at the moment.

Eventually the silence is broken and we're talking again.

"Who's Sean?" Brad asks.

"Erm, how do you know about him?" I reply and feel a lump in my throat.

"Chloe mentioned him," he tells me.

"What did she tell you?" I ask worried.

"That you know, you two had a thing and that I reminded her of him." He says.

"Okay." I reply, hoping he won't take this further.

"Is that true?" He asks taking it further, but not too far.

"You could say that, it was too off and on to be classed as a thing." I tell him.

"What actually happened?" He asks.

"What do you mean?" I reply.

"How did you meet and all that?" He says then continues. "Let me re phrase, what was your story?"

"Well, this is going to take a while so I hope your ready, and I hope you can follow because it's complicated." I say, bracing myself for everything I'm about to tell him, I don't want to tell him, but I know that I have to. He's the first person that will ever know everything, and will hopefully be the last. "Sean didn't go to the same school as me, but we lived in the same area, back in Chelsea. I went to a private girls school and he went to a private boys school, so it was right next door and all that. But basically if you skip all the details of how close everything is, we met at a party. Chloe's party a few years back when I was fifteen and he was sixteen." I pause sitting on the bench that we walk to and trying to bite my tongue to hold back and stop my emotions from showing. "I never thought about this properly before, I knew I broke a law obviously, but I always thought it was my fault because that's what he told me, but it's not." I stop again choking on my own breath and Brad wraps his arms around me.

"You don't have to tell me." He whispers softly in my ear.

"You're the only person I trust and you're the first who will know the truth." I tell him.

"Okay." He replies and kisses my forehead.

"Brad he raped me." I force out and break into the fit of tears that has kept replaying for months on end.

Brad doesn't say anything he just brings me in closer to him and I rest my head on his chest allowing all the pain to take over and finally destroy me like it's been waiting to. He holds me and doesn't need to say anything because his body language tells me he's there for me and knows it will be good again.
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