A Beginners Guide To Falling In Love

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Songs
1.Work Song~Hozier
2.Cherry Wine~Hozier
3.Anobrain~The 1975
4.I Wanna Be Yours~Arctic Monkeys

After what seemed like the most dramatic moment of my life we returned home and I never spoke a word about Sean or what he did for the next few days, I just left myself to think about it. If it really was my fault like he told me, that I led him on. I shake my head trying to erase the memory and try to focus on my phone. I had several messages from Brad, James and Chloe. It was all the same, a few 'hope your okays' and a couple 'where are you's'. I didn't have the energy to reply, even though it required none and I had all the time in the world.

I decided to return to school today, but that was around 10:00 am, I don't know if the school accept students coming in late like that, but there's not point in waiting another whole day and missing most of my lessons.

I began the walk, I knew the way by now as I had seen the route by the drive every morning with either James or Brad. Just thinking about Brad made me smile, he was so kind and caring, I couldn't have told anyone else what I told him.

I fiddle with the ends of jumper and continue to walk silently down the street, the school eventually began to come into view.

I decided to turn round to go down the alleyway so I could reach the back gate that was closer to the sixth form department.

Even though it was mid day it seemed to go dark and as I continued to walk further down I saw a figure appear, I couldn't ignore them as I was getting closer to them, but in sure they mean no harm.

His blonde hair and green eyes strike me and leave me breathless as I reach him.

"S-Sean." I choke out as I am encased in fear and anxiety.

"Hi babe, miss me?" He asks smiling grimly as he places his hand on my side.

"Don't touch me." I mumble and back away.

"Are you scared?" He mocks me laughing cruelly, and moving closer to me and trying to grab me again.

"No," I say instinctively and then correct myself by accident. "Y-yes."

"Don't be, it'll be over before you even know." He says still smiling in an evil way and roughly pulls me into him and forces his lips on mine.

I push myself off him with all my force in disgust, and fear.

"Get away from me." I say as confidently as I can.

"Someone's feisty," he smirks and inches toward me again.

"No, leave me alone." I say and hold my arms out in front of me trying to get him to stop.

He pushes my arms out the way and I turn and run as quick as I can, but his arms quickly snake around my waist holding me back, and I scream out for help, I will not let him do this.

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"Hannah," Brad says worriedly.

"Help me, please." The words slip out of my mouth and my whole body is shaking violently.

"You're safe now, you're fine, everything fine." He whispers looking at me with sympathetic eyes.

I take in my surroundings slowly, scanning the room I'm now in. The hall, but it's dead silent and its only occupants are me, Brad, James and Chloe.

"Where's Sean gone? How did I end up here?" I ask confused.

"It wasn't real, Sean's not here and that never happened." Brad says now calm.

"What did happen?" I ask still trying to figure out everything.

"I'm guessing you were walking to school and that's when James found you passed out in the alleyway, when he was leaving. Obviously he took you back here, but are you okay?" He says rushed towards the end.

"I don't know." I mumble getting up onto my feet, from the floor I was once laying on, as Brad follows guiding me.

"Why didn't you tell me that Sean did that to you?" Chloe says hurt.

"How does she know?" I turn to Brad accusingly.

"I had to tell her, she's your best friend, Hannah she was so worried about you." Brad says.

"I can't believe this, I trusted you and know she knows and I'm guessing he does as well." I say referring to James.

"They all care about you, and you know I wouldn't tell them for no reason." Brad defends himself.

"Look what's more important is that she never told me." Chloe exclaims.

"I told you, you just said that I led him on and that it was my fault," I shout back angrily.

"Hannah, calm down." Brad whispers placing his arms softly round my waist.

I gasp and feel tears form in my eyes as I remember this action from Sean. I screw my eyes shut and calm myself down again.

"Brad." James says sternly.

I feel Brads arms drop and I re open my eyes.

"Look, we're all here for you, and I know this will annoy you, but from now on you are not to be alone, in case it happens again and no one is there to help you like last time." James tells me.

"Don't tell my mum." I say turning to Brad.

"She's already coming here to pick you up." He mumbles. "I'm sorry."

"So what am I supposed to do now?" I ask lost and confused.

"I'll take you out to meet your mum, and Brad and Chloe you should return to your lessons." James says.

"Fine," Brad replies and comes over to me and plants a soft kiss on my forehead. "I love you, remember that." He whispers in my ear.

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I find myself still waiting for my mums arrival with James at the front gates.

"Hannah, I'm sorry I didn't get to you sooner, and that I couldn't stop it, I just want you to know that. Okay?" James says softly laced in sadness.

"If it wasn't for you finding me god knows where I would be now, so don't blame yourself for not getting to me fast enough." I say to James. "I'm so lucky and thankful that you even found me."

"I'm sorry, no man that would ever do that deserves to live." James replies still with a hint of sadness and pulls me into a warm embrace. "You're to beautiful and kind to ever have that happen to you. You don't deserve this and I hope he feels guilty for the rest of his life."

"But that's the thing, he won't because he made it out that I wanted that, and that I led him on and I'm a careless slag that-"

"Hannah, no listen to me, you're strong, beautiful, amazing and independent and deserve so much more." He says looking into my eyes and his face nearing mine with his arms perfectly wrapped around me.