Tittle: BEST OF FRIENDS
"So class, we still have time. I will ask you a questions. Ms. Syl, what do you think of friendship? "
Nagugulat akong napatingin sa high school teacher ko. Bakit ako pa ang napili niyang tanungin? We are fifty here, why me? The hell?
"Ma'am? About friendship? What kind of friednship? Best of friends or...?" I shrugged.
Isininyas niya ako "What do you prefer?"
"Best of friends? For me besf of friends have a tight connection with each other. Na hindi ka nila kakalimutan." I coldly said.
"It seems like, you have a story about that? Can you tell me about that? "
"Is this my interview ma'am?" I chuckled bago ko inilibot ang tingin sa klase,lahat sila ay tahimik at nakatingin lang sa akin.
"It seems like you're story is interesting."
"Before I have bestfriend,but now...I don't have one."
"Why?"
"He left me beacause his girlfriend say so." I simply said,bago naupo pero nanatiling nakatingin sa teacher.
"Do you still want to answer my question? I have few, but if you are not comfortable,it's okay."
"As long as you have a question to ask,you can ask me, but I will answer that ng nakaupo." I assured her kahit ako ay kabado.
"They are all interested in your answer. It seems like that they know who you are talking about."
"You are right, of course they know that."
"So, what happened?"
"Nothing important. It's just that one day he started to aviod me. Nagseselos yung girlfriend niya. He blocked me on social media. Nung tingnan ko yung profile niya, he unfriend me too." I heavely sighed,tumungo ako at pinaghawak ko ang kamay kong nakapatong sa armchair ko.
"Pinagaayos ko pa sila nung girlfriend niya. Ine-explain ko pa yung side niya. Tas yun pala, sakin na nag seselos." tumawa ako pero walang emosyong mababasa doon.
"And then,he avoid me na nga. Then one time lumapit siya sakin. Sabi niya, masyado na daw akong masakit magsalita. But I am just a straight forward person. I don't fuc–I mean, I don't know what to say." My vission started to become blurry because of the tears.
"Ilang araw lumipas,pumasok siya ng may sakit. Oras ng breaktime noon ng lapitan ko siya kase muntik na siya matumba noon, nahihilo ata siya. I asked him if his okay,pero nilampasan niya lang ako. So sabi ko sa sarili ko, bat ko ipipilit sakanya yung sarili ko." natatawa kong sabi kahit na kunting galaw ko lang ay tutulo na ang luha ko.
"Then, that was the last time I talked to him. He was my bestfriend in a years. Almost two years, actually. Hanggang sa lumapit ulit siya sakin. Wala na daw sila nung girlfriend niya. Tumango lang ako sa kanya noon eh. Tas iniwan ko na siya doon sa upuan ko." Pinunasan ko yung luhang tumulo sa pisngi ko habang nakangiti.
"Naging malayo ang loob ko sa lahat. Hindi naman malayo, is just that I have a wall beetween every people I meet. I don't even care about them at all. I don't trust them. "
"So, what happened changed you?" my teacher asked again.
"No, I changed because I want to find my worth" tumingin ako sa kanya habang pinupunasan ko yung luha ko.
"Hindi na ako nangangamusta sa kanila. I didn't asked them if they are okay or what... As if they're asking me too" i chuckled.
"They don't even asking me if I am okay. How am I?... Am I okay?... Nothing. Paparamdam lang sila pag may kailangan sila. "
"Can you still forgive him?" one of my classmate asked.
I looked at her before eyeing on the floor. Can I? He already say sorry to me before.
"I already accept his sorry. It's just that, hindi na maibabalik yung dati. Wala na yung kilala niyang ako noon."
"So, you already know you worth?" my teacher asked.
"I still don't... Am I worth it? I don't even know if I am? " I smiled." I already accept his sorry but I can't forgot what he did. "
"He said that I am his still best friend but for me, he's not. He's just a acquaintance to me. Just someone I know before. It's just that I can't tell it to them. Hindi ko na kayang maging straight-forward sa kanya. "
"Is there a chance that you two will get along together again. Na magiging okay ulit kayo?" my teacher asked again.
"We're okay, okay kami. If he was asking me on social media if I am okay. I answered him. That I am okay. With a period in the end. Sign that I want to end our conversation." my tears are slowly fall from my eyes to my cheeks, I am not ready in this situation. Pero kahit may luha sa mata hindi kailan nabasag ang boses ko.
"Sasagot ako ng okay ako. If he asked me about what happened before. Kung tampo pa daw ba ako,kung galit daw ba ako. I will answered him that I am not. Pero dadating yung gabi na mare-realize ko ulit na hindi parin okay. Na nasasaktan parin ako. He forgot the friendship we have before."
"Nag tiwala ako sa kanya eh, but he broke my trust on him as my best friend." after I said that, the bell rang. Sign that the time is done for her subject. It's breaktime again. Agad kong pinunas yung mga luha sa mata,while smiling on my teacher.
"Bell na ma'am,tapos na ang interview ko," biro ko, sinundan ko pa iyon ng tawa.
Tumawa naman ang teacher ko at nag pasalamat sa akin. She even hugged me,wierd huh? .
Aalis na sa na ako para bumili ng pagkain sa canteen ng may yumakap sa akin ng mahigpit. Hindi ako makagalaw. Napatingin ako sa mga kaklase kong nagkatingin lang sa akin.
He was my bestfriend before. Drake. He's whispering sorry. I tapped his back twice before slightly pushed him.
"It's just a story, walang name doon" I simply said. I dont have emotion in my voice but I have a smile in my lips." Breaktime na," I said before turning my back on him and started walking. "Kumain na kayo" I said using my Vice -President voice. Serious voice.
You already lost me. Why would I trust you again, if you are not wort it. How can I trust a man that judge me harshly before.
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