The Pain that Lingers

chapter thirty two: Spoken with Ease

Lucy 

I just left a nice little Café in town. 

It was nice to get some quiet time. 

I had loads of schoolwork I had to get done. 

This semester, I'm taking AP European History, AP United States Government and Politics, and AP Spanish Literature and one elective which is on some days like last semester. 

Shit! 

My stuff knocked over, I felt like I hit a brick. 

I looked up into his eyes. 

"Jayden?" I whispered. I lowered my head to the ground. 

"I need to talk to you..." Jayden said awkwardly. 

"No, I have to go." I quickly say. I grabbed my stuff and he grabbed my arm, what is with him and grabbing my arm? He pulled me to my car, and shut the door and locked everything. He sighed putting his hands in his head. 

"I'm sorry, I had to do it." He said referring to him cheating with that skank. 

"Leave and get out, Jayden!" I practically yell. He flinched and I didn't realize how scary I was being right now, frankly I don't care because he deserves everything he gets. 

"I was forced into being with her." Jayden blurted. 

"Yeah, right. I saw you that night with your tongue down her throat." I say throwing my arms up, my fist were balled up ready to punch him in the face if he did not leave my car. 

"It wasn't like that. In order to prove that I was 'dating' Candace, I had to make it look like it was real." Jayden explained. 

"I want to believe you, but please GET OUT!" I yell louder. 

"Fine, I just wanted you to know that." Jayden said getting out of the car. I slammed my hand on the wheel over and over again until it started to hurt. Tears were streaming out of my eyes. Why did he do this to me? Why did he choose me if this is what he was going to do? 

When I arrived home, my parents weren't home. Logan was out for the night and I had the house to myself. I curled up in my bed and started to cry. I hear my door open and quicky got myself together. I got my baseball bat that I keep near me bed and held onto it for dear life. 

My bedroom door started to open and a dark figure appeared. My lights were off just in case they thought I was home. I turned it back on and started yelling and holding the bat to the persons face. 

Jayden's here? 

What. The. Hell? 

"What the fuck?" I screamed. 

"Calm down." Jayden said covering his hand over my mouth. I struggled to keep him off, I fought him for a while until we both calmed down and were out of breath. My silky bed spread was now ruined from him messing it up fighting with me. I fixed my hair and nearly jumped off the bed into my corner. 

"I need to explain. So sit down, or stand. But hear me out. I was being threatened by someone, if I didn't date Candace, someone would kill you- or Jalen. They found out where he was; I did not know what to do, I swear!" Jayden said almost on the verge of crying. I let him explain himself for a few more minutes. 

"After they found out, I went over to Candaces' house to find out if it was her, but she had no idea what I was talking about. She told me she would do anything for me because we were once such good friends. We were faking it that night- it wasn't what it looked like, you have to believe me." 

"I don't know, why didn't you just tell me to begin with? Why did you break my heart into a billion pieces when you know what happened to me in the past?" I asked, feeling cynical. 

"I had to, it was part of the plan to make it believable." Jayden said.

"I understand, but I have a boyfriend now. I can't just break up with him." I said. 

"I know-" Jayden began to say, but I cut him off. 

"No, you don't know. Harrison and I are a couple, please leave us alone." I said. I felt numb, I felt like my entire world was collapsing. If Jayden would have explained this to me before he was with Candace, I would've understood where he was coming from. 

"Please, let me kiss you one last time then." Jayden said. 

He got up and walked over to me, tension was building. He kissed me long and hard. I gasped. No Lucy, don't give him that temptation. 

He pressed his body against mine, I wrapped my arms around him, then my legs around his waist. I felt hot, my body was aching for him. For his touch, for his love. 

"God, I've missed you." Jayden said breaking the kiss. Suddenly, the feelings went away. He left and I just sat on my bed wondering what the hell just happened, maybe, he was telling the truth? My hands involuntarily slapped my forehead. 

"Why are you so fucking stupid, Lucy?" I mumble to myself. 

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The next day arrived and I had a big test. 

Last night distracted me, so I couldn't study for the entire night. Now I'm basically screwed for my European History test. I wanted to apologize to Candace, I know they should have told me; but I should not have acted the way I did to another person. 

After class was over I tried to find Candace. I wanted to make amends with her, I didn't want any beef with anybody now. I found her in the courtyard by herself, where are her minions? My footsteps were loud enough for her to look up. 

"What are you doing here?" She asked. 

"I wanted to talk..." I say sitting down next to her. 

"About what?" 

"You and Jayden..." I awkwardly said, I could feel the tension rising. 

"What about us?" Candace retorted. 

"Look, I don't want to fight anymore. I don't want whatever problems we had to affect us moving forward. I accept full responsibility of what happened before, and I'm sorry." I said, truly meaning every word. 

"Wow, who would've thought you'd be the one apologizing. If anything- I should be the one to apologize. I'm sorry for lying, and everything I did before. I was so caught up in my own world, I was afraid of what people might think of me when they did find out I was a lesbian. Now, I don't have to worry." She said. "So I guess I'm not mad anymore." 

"Truce?" I say holding out my hand. 

"Truce," Candace said shaking it. 

Chapter thirty two is now completed. Let me know what you guys think.