Friends With Benefits - P.JM | 18+

23

Days.

So many days go on.

I haven't seen your face, not once Jimin.

I've been texting continuously, nevertheless.

I didn't mind the wait. Even though, I was slightly worried.

My lessons were the same. One after the other.

Zizi and Chuwie were beginning to talk less.

Zizi would hang out with Tiana and her
friend Maria quite often.

It didn't bother me, however. I guess, we were drifting apart?

I didn't mind.

Today was Friday and we didn't have many lessons. We leave early. I make it towards my second to last lesson; maths.

Whilst walking up the stairs, my eyes land on the giant window besides me.

Jimin, I see you walking with your girl best friends and it slightly hurt but I felt a relief in my chest.

You were here. You didn't leave.

I'm so embarrassed.

A part of me would wish you left so I'd get over the fear. Yet the other part would hope that you would prove that thought wrong and remain.

Maths wasn't awful. I had quite a funny teacher and he was very thoughtful when it came to work. He never overworked us, he didn't demand much. He took his time and was absolutely patient with us. I was grateful, because usually I would dread certain lessons but his was the one where I didn't have much of an issue.

The lesson seemed to fly by quite quick and before you knew it, I was in my last lesson.

I notice that Zizi and Chuwie were not in yet and I was guessing that everyone was taking their time to arrive.

I suddenly get called over by Tiana, "Hey, could I talk to you?"

Her friend Maria gives me a smile before saying, "Has Zizi talked to you, yet?"

I was quite confused and I shake my head.

They both sit down besides me and speak, "She told us a few things." Tiana whispers.

I swallow the lump that was forming in my throat before nodding my head, asking them to proceed.

"She was talking about you, specifically." Tiana says, her lips pursing almost in disappointment.

Maria gently strokes my arm, smiling at me softly. It felt nice that they were being comforting. I feel like they knew it was quite bad.

"She spoke about not being close to you, Y/N." Tiana says.

I didn't deny it.

I nod my head, "Yeah. I suspected that. She's not wrong, I can't lie. Yet, I wish she would come to me instead."

It's true. I wouldn't have been upset, I knew she was correct and I would've sat down and talked to her about it, if it was bothering her that much.

Maria says, "Yeah, I said you're like that, I told her to speak to you. However, I really disliked some of the other things she said."

My eyebrows now raise in confusion. "What else did she say?"

Maria sighs, "She said things like she misses when it was just her and Chuwie."

I didn't know how to react, but it was expected so I nodded my head.

Although, yes, I was quite upset.

The other part of me understood, they were together whilst I was in a different class. Of course they were going to have a stronger bond. I didn't mind either.

I wasn't jealous nor was I very affected.

I managed to push aside the harsh thoughts.

Tiana adds on, "She mentioned some guy, also. I shut her down before she could continue, but she was saying some pretty harsh things about you."

I feel my heart pump harder. This was where I was affected. I didn't like the fact that she was talking about this.

I was also worried about what type of name I'd be given.

Tiana smiles, "Don't worry. We don't hate you. We understand that you wouldn't want your private information out for the rest of the world. She's wrong for that."

You know.

I really appreciated that these people weren't judging me.

"You know-- that's not a friend, Y/N. Going behind your back and telling everybody about your business. That's no friend." Maria adds, shaking her head.

She wasn't wrong.

These girls, they were right.

Chuwie and Zizi enter the class around the same time as our teacher.

Chuwie comes up to me, "What's wrong?"

I shake my head.

She doesn't say anything more and sits down.

Maria and Tiana eye Zizi before leaving towards their seats.

Zizi asks, "What did they say?"

I shake my head, "Nothing."

She nods her head before saying, "I still can't believe how you found a guy. It's so unbelievable to me."

I giggle softly. Yet, the words were very hurtful.

I purse my lips and ask her, "Why is it so unbelievable though?"

She's quiet.

It's almost as if she's letting my words slowly sink in.

"Am I really that ugly, Zizi?"

She immediately shakes her head. "No-- That's not--"

Her sentence remained unfinished as the teacher was quick to interrupt.

"Are you done talking? Please pay attention to my class."

We nod our heads and face the front.

I guess I've had enough, as much as I wanted to respect her and be patient, I couldn't.

I wanted to confront her and it didn't concern me if I was being harsh.

As long as I was confrontational. I'd feel better.

I felt awful constantly giving her the benefit of the doubt, when all she was doing was pushing boundaries after boundaries.

This time.

No, this time I'm not taking it.