𝐆𝐎𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐑𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇 𝐏𝐇𝐀𝐒𝐄𝐒 // 𝐦𝐢𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐥 𝐜𝐚𝐯𝐞

2.1

song of the chap: too late- chase Atlantic

finally, phases is almost done.

just a few music videos, and then they can set a release date. the group had decided to release the whole album all at once, instead of doing them 1 at a time because the whole album had a feature, which increased the whole hype. not to mention, sierra and the boys had not released the fact that sierra was the feature. though the fans knew there was a feature, they didnt know sierra was. some of the fans did guess it, because sierra was posting quite a bit of them and was posting some videos of her playing some of the songs on the album which she never did, she exclusivley did covers.

all the fans needed was one picture of sierra and cas hugging in a building that looked like a studio for them to guess that sierra was the feature.

speaking of fans, sierra constantly watched the videos about her on social medias. now that she was a known friend of the members of chase atlantic, the chase fans made videos about her, fanpages, and edits. everytime she opened her inbox on any app there would be hundreds of tags, all of videos about her. and she felt absolutley stunned that people actually cared about her content and actually thought she was pretty.

on the topic of pretty, today marks 15 days sierra went without eating. and her body wasnt reacting well. she often felt dizzy and hazed, you could see her ribs through any shirt or sweater she wore, and she had the urge to throw up every time she woke up, or stood up to fast, or smelled food, or even thought about food. and because she was still drinking tea and water, she often would throw up in cases that were more serious.

casilda had noticed sierra hadnt been eating every time cas saw her, and thought it was fishy, but when she confronted sierra about it sierra profusley denied it.

but, it also means that sierra has been clean 2 weeks.

ever since brandon had died sierra had lost complete hope in her staying sober for more than 3 hours, so now that she was sober 336 hours, it felt almost unreal. she finally stopped having migranes and seeing tunnels whenever she stood up too fast, and she finally felt happy in her state of mind.

Of course she was still struggling, but being clean really helped reduce her struggles.

At the moment, sierra was facetiming Claire. It was both of their 2 week clean streak, so they were both celebrating with a tiny cupcake and a candle.

"happy sobriety to u-usss, happy sobriety to usss!!" the girls exclaimed as they held the cupcake in front of them, before blowing out the candle and smiling. The girls giggled and giggled before eating their cupcakes.

Sierra really didn't want to shove the tiny delicacy into her mouth, but she had to. Her stomach gurgled and groaned as she chewed, the nauseous pain taking over as she tried her hardest not to scream. It felt as if she was going to puke out all of her internal organs when she swallowed the cake, her stomach yearning for more. She put a fake smile on and ate the rest, watching her sister enjoy a cupcake from the phone that laid against a pillow in front of her.

Sierra had a wave of guilt take her over. She could tell her sister about her crippling addiction that was killing her and her relationships, but now she cant bother to tell her sister about not eating in over 2 weeks? She felt guilty and naive.

"im so proud of us," Claire said, removing sierra from the guilt and catching her attention. Sierra perked up the fake smile and nodded, throwing away the wrapper from the cupcake.

Atleast im clean.

"yeah. Me too," sierra smiled and nodded, moving her legs around. She looked at the bottom of her phone screen and realized she had to leave soon, which made her sad but also happy because she had to leave to film the too late music video.