My Heart Fell As Hard At Twenty-three (Bruno Madrigal x ADHD reader)

Chapter 14 {Who am I?}

Your POV

"Y/n, did you get enough sleep, you look tired" Tia Pepa asked, it's been a hundred of questions asking me if I had sleep, of course I didn't can't you see! "I did Tía, noting to worry about" I said smiling at them "Ok" she replied. As the whole familia finish eating me and Mirabel start to clean the room "I can see your face, if your Tia Pepa you would have a cloud by now. Why? Because you didn't" she said as she wash the dishes.

"Of course I didn't what would they expect!" I yelled as I let my anger out "I know, that's why I told you to at least sleep" she said her eyes fix on the dishes "Mirabel, listen to me. I didn't choose to sleep because I need to be a miss little perfect like what my parents said" I told her out of my fustration, she then drop the plate causing it to shutter on the sink "You think everyone in this family is perfect, Abuela saw that being perfect is not the solution even Isabela saw it" she told me in a angry manner.

Our fight cause everyone to run towards the dining room and listen "So you think that me, myself and I have the same familia as you!" I yelled again "Why? What was yours, huh?" Mirabel asked "I was rejected by my parents after they knew about my ADHD disorder, I started to act as the Miss little perfect in the house after my mom told me I'm not her daughter anymore, I endure every pain I got from my brother as he kept beating me at night which I can't tell my parent because his the favorite child. What else do you want to hear!" I yelled for the last time as Mirabel took a step back.

"Who am I? Who am I to them? Who am I to my family, huh?" I asked as tears start to come out my eyes "What am I to them? To my Kuya, to my mom, my dad? Why can't they accept me?" I cried, out load so everyone will hear "Even my Abuelo didn't liked me only my Abuela" I said, it was silence no one spoke the only sound that can be heard was my voice. I cried letting all the pain and secrets out.

"Y/n, I'm so so sorry, I should have known" I heard Mirabel "I didn't know that was your past, I should have let you spoke first" she added, I didn't say anything I still cry it seems I can't let the tears stop no matter what "I have to keep washing the dishes, Uhm Todo El mundo (everyone) can you please help her clam a little once I'm done I'll do it" she said as I stayed there sitting "c'mon now cariño" I heard Tio Filix as I assume Luisa carried me to the table.

"I heard it first, but it was to load so I called everyone to go here to see what's going on" Dolores said "we were worried to what Dolores said so we did rush" Tio Austin added "Y/n calm down, you can talk to us though" tia Pepa also talk "corazon, it's not a bad thing to keep it but now that we know, at least talk to us" tia Julieta spoke either, but I can't find any words, my sobs are more loader than what I want to say.

I can't handle their advice so I stand up and run, and run, and run until I reach the river back when I saw Mirabel sitting alone where Abuela found her. I let everything out, I shout, I yell, I did everything to let my emotions out 'Why am I like this?' I thought I was suppose to tell them everything but I can't, I can't bring to tell them everything, why? Because my past was more than what this familia have.

I stayed here, sitting looking at the river as it flows in a slow current, tears still flowing down my eyes, my sobs were still heard by my own ears 'I can't yet they know now, I don't have any choice' I thought but even tho they knew I choose to run away because I'm scared, I'm scared that they might react in the way I don't expect, I'm scared that one day I'll never be able to be myself anymore.

I felt the stinging pain in my throat again as tears start to flow again "Why can't you stop?!" I asked myself "Maybe it's because you need someone to talk too" I heard a feminine voice "Isa?" I turn to look at her "How are you? Are doing fine here now y/n?" She asked I didn't answer but I continue to watch the river "Y/n, here's a quick word. I was once a pretend miss little perfect, but it was Mirabel's fault that I'm this now, I'm free look at you now everyone knew now" she told me "I don't think it's a good idea telling them"

"It is cariño, look at the familia now, it's because of Mirabel. If it wasn't for her, were still what we are" she said "I'm scared Isa, I don't know what to do" I said as my sobs came back, she let me rest on her shoulder "it's fine to cry, Luisa who's a big guy also cry you who's just a small fry, why would you stop" she said laughing a little as I felt myself laughing a little "Isa, are you sure it will be fine?" I asked.

"Sí" she answered "Here" she added as she handed me a Higanbana flower "I remember you mention that your Abuela likes this" she said smiling at me "Gracias" I said as I hug her "do you want to go back now?" Isabela asked me "maybe later, I like it here" I said hugging her more, maybe she was right I just need someone to talk to because everytime I did that the weight on my chest, my sadness disappear.

While me and Isabela stayed on the river watching it's view, she told me about what happen in this place how everything started. I was also amazed that by just sacrificing a life can cause a great miracle "that's why Abuela held on being perfect on the first place because she was also scared on losing the miracle" Isa said as I listen to every words she spoke.

'Isa is right, I have to tell them no matter what the Cost' I thought as I stand up "c'mon Isa, let's go I have a story to tell either" I said as she stands up smiling and pulled me back to the town.