Poems of a Suicidal Memory

Fatal Goodbye

I see you over there with that man on the stair, watching him stare in your eyes and watching you stare into his. Now it's none of my bis but I can't help feeling like this, it's like a giant stream of piss on my life, no sorry will suffice though it ain't your fault, your heart is a vault that needs a key, not a silent plea from me. It's not how life's supposed to be, cause now I finally see that you're happy. Though my life is crappy, I don't really care, I can't bear seeing you sad, it makes me mad, now I wish I had a way to give you bliss, now I'm furious, I can't stand this! He's the one that you will kiss, and he's the one that you will miss, but what if something's amiss? Now I mean no diss, but what if he's a little prick? He'll dump you real quick. That's enough to make me tick, make me save what we had, which isn't so bad, it actually makes me glad! But what if he's the perfect guy, makes you cry, just because he'd fly, all the way across the sky, just to say hi before you die? He can drive by with you on his mind, knock on your door, tryin to find the heart that you stole. It leaves in empty hole, slowly being filled with the soul of you and him, while I stay over here forgotten, still bowing to your every whim, slowly rottin. Wasting away, much to my dismay, but I know I'll be okay cause you're happy.

So what's up now? Just tell me how. How can I just walk away? Now I knew I'd pay, but not this way. Why am I so mad? I blew the one chance I had! Lost everything, I'm no longer king! But that one ring, it's in the back of my head, it's tellin me that I've got one thing left, brought by a theft, a simple thing to make me mad, but at least I've had something, I've had Enough. I'm done making my life rough, I'm done chasing after you, I've got the clue. I've got the hint, but you've left a print, a stain on my heart, a pain in the brain. But the day that your heart will break in two, is the day that I will die with you. I live just to see you smile, so forget him, stay for a while. I'll remember what we did, all the truths we've never hid. And so now you're torn, but your heart's been worn, with the pain and the guilt, so now why must we wilt? Love doesn't last, it's just a thing of the past. What I feel isn't real, just a worthless thought. I'm just a worthless thought. Nobody cares, why should I? I almost had her, but it doesn't matter cause she's happy.

What did I do? Oh it's easy for you. I said I wouldn't leave, it's a shame you'd believe. But here I am, just take my hand, stand there for my final stand. Goodbye, goodbye, don't ask me why. Goodbye, goodbye, just stop your lie. Goodbye, goodbye, now where am I? I'm flyin high, I'll wave goodbye. I wish we could last, bring back the past. You were my best, so here's my final request: won't you please smile as I fade, forget what we made. Won't you please laugh as I go, forget what you know. Won't you please love as I die, don't ask me why. This world needs a little death in its midst, c'mon, ask me why and I'll give you a list. Don't you worry, don't you cry, girl I promise you'll be fine. Death is here, it is time, I'll embrace it like it's mine. So now I'm gone, look at this dawn. It's a new light, it's shining bright. My burden's been lifted, this death I've been gifted. Now you're glad, no more sad, I'm dead, I'm gone, so look ahead. Woah, wait, no more tears. You've been lifted of all your fears. You've been waiting all these years, now I'm gone so why the beers? Woah, wait, put down that knife, you're still wanted in your life! Oh shit, what did I do? Oh shit, what do I do? What the hell, why you bleeding? What the fuck, please I'm pleading! Please, please, don't come to me! Please, please, why can't you see? I did this all for you, so what the fuck you gonna do? Get up, get up, why won't you fucking move? Wake up, wake up, what a precious life to lose. Oh now I see, we were all you wanna be. We were fine the way you were, no more him and no more her. Now here I hate what I have done, you want regrets, I got a ton. Wait, what the hell did I just do, you were happy with me and you.