Poems of a Suicidal Memory

My Broken Heart

Ever since the start,

had this pain in my heart.

Now inside is a void,

because my heart's been toyed.

I was in so deep,

then left alone to weep.

My stolen dance,

I never had a chance.

Seeing you with him,

I could never win. 

That love was my first,

that love was the worst.

My broken heart,

fueled my broken dreams.

Then my world fell apart,

love is not what it seems.

But I got up again,

eradicated pain. 

I will never fall, 

I will show you all.

Then I made a friend,

too close to the end.

We grew too close,

then problems arose.

Your heart had been stolen,

from the words I had spoken. 

My heart was cold, 

from wounds of old.

I pushed her out,

with a scream and a shout.

Then her world fell apart,

who's gonna fix her broken heart?

Blood flows like a river,

watching her world wither.

Ended her own life,

troubled with strife.

She held the blade, 

but I drove the knife.

Grief and guilt,

 I walk the line.

The line is far too fine.

The fault is mine.

So once again,

My broken heart,

fueled my broken dreams.

Then my world fell apart,

love is not what it seems.

But I got up again,

eradicated pain.

I will never fall,

I will show you all.

My world was in a spiral,

depression going viral,

I laid in bed all day,

this is the price I pay.

My blade became a pen,

my wrist, a canvas again.

But then I met her,

how stupid we were.

I sold my soul to the devil,

she brought me up to her level.

I was in a dark place,

then I saw her face.

I was finally happy,

like a lovesick puppy.

I finally let her in,

then the lies crawled through my skin.

She fucked me over,

happiness, a short exposure.

My broken heart was shattered,

pieces thrown to the wind and scattered.

Tried so hard to get you back,

tried so hard to never crack.

My mind thrown out of whack

my life's just gray and black.

Just someone else I lost,

will my life be the cost?

someone please save,

My broken heart,

fueled my broken dreams.

Then my world fell apart,

love is not what it seems.

But I got up again,

eradicated pain.

I will never fall,

I will show you all.

Well now here I am,

smiling, don't give a damn.

Found someone to make me happy,

now my life's no longer crappy.

I've got the world on my side,

she's my Bonnie, I'm her Clyde.

I would travel across the nations,

pouring my heart in all translations. 

My dear,

I would bleed out for you,

I will do what I need to do.

Please, I need to see you smile,

please stay for a while.

Let's go on a journey,

save me from the gurney.

Find the pieces to my broken heart,

mold them back to before, at the start.

Maybe you can save me and,

My broken heart,

fueled my broken dreams.

Then my world fell apart,

love is not what it seems.

But I got up again,

eradicated pain.

I will never fall,

I will show you all.

I will show you all.