Daniel Howell Imagines

Love Is A Ghost You Can't Control

Love Is A Ghost You Can't Control

"and i know, the scariest part is letting go, cause love is a ghost you can't control, I promise you the truth can't hurt us now, so let the words slip out of your mouth..."

Dan has been my best friends since we were like 11. We're both now 23, and living in London. But, only recently, I've started to develop feelings for him. Feelings that kinda just came out of nowhere. I can't really get him out of my head. Its like, I could be in the busiest part of London when I'm with Dan, and it just feels like its the two of us. And i just want him to feel the same thing too. It's just- when i'm with him, the whole world around us just fades away and all I see is him. I just want him to say that he feels the same too.

I start walking to Dan and Phil's' shared apartment, to finally tell him how i felt, and i have no idea how he's gonna react, I just hope that he feels the same way, and if he doesn't, to not make things awkward, because i don't want to lose my best friend of 12 years, just because, i fell in love with him. God that sounds stupid. All that he can say to make all the noise in my head, and all the non stop wondering if he feels the same way, all he can say to make that all go away is that he feels the same way too, that hes also in love with me, that he wants to be with me as much as i want to be with him.

I'm finally in front of the familiar apartment complex. The nerves start to build, my heart rates going up, all of these thoughts are going through my head. What if he doesn't like me back? What if when i tell him he laughs and closes the door in my face? What if he rejects me in the harshest way possible? I don't what i would do if that happened.

I hadn't realized that i had already knocked on the apartment door and there Dan was, standing right in front of me, with a look of utter confusion

"(Y/N), are you alright? You look so horrified" Dan questioned with an expression on his face to match. I couldn't speak, no words could come out of my mouth, I was just frozen. My whole body felt paralyzed. "(Y/N), talk to me, what's wrong?" Dan pulled me into his apartment. I felt pale, my heart was beating rapidly, it almost felt like it was gonna pop out of my chest. I regret this decision instantly. Dan sits me on the couch, next to Phil where he analyses me to see if he can read my mind.

"Oh, hey (Y/N)" Phil says to me, but i don't respond, I can't speak, i'm too terrified to speak. I just can't do it. I just- I can't. "Dan, what's wrong with (Y/N)?" Phil asks, Dan still keeps his eye on you and responds to Phil "I have no idea, she won't speak"

My heart is thudding, that's all i can seem to hear in this silent room. "Dan,c-can I talk to you i-in p-private, please?" You finally said. Dan gave you a look of nervousness and led you into his room. You sat on his bed while he stared down at you looking for answers. "Dan, t-there's something, I need t-to tell y-you" You stuttered nervously, you just wanted the whole world to just eat you up. You just wanted to be swallowed into this black hole, never to be seen or heard of again. Dan nodded nervously.

"Dan, th-this is really hard for me to say, a-and, I have no idea how to say it" You started off.

"(Y/N), you know you can tell me anything, right? I won't judge, you. You're my best friend" And there it was, the "Best Friend" card, you kinda felt your heart shatter, but you tried to brush it off.

"Dan, I really, really, really like you. And not in a best friend way. I think i might be in love with you, and I can't sleep, I can't eat, and I can't think." You quickly replied to Dan. It's too late to turn back now. The look on Dan's face, he looked utterly shocked, like he didn't know how to react. He didn't say a word. He didn't even look at you.

"I'm sorry, I'll leave" You said as tears started to form in your eyes, before you knew it, tears were rushing down your face like a waterfall. You stormed out of Dan's' room and almost out of the apartment.

"(Y/N), what's wrong you okay?" Phil had noticed you trying to escape and the tears down your face

"Phil, I'm sorry but i real-" You were cut off by someone shouting your name through the apartment.

"(Y/N), wait!" Dan called out to you, you turned around facing him "(Y/N), I'm in love with you too" Dan finally said. Phil dropped the mug of coffee he had in his hands on the floor in surprise. "(Y/N), I've been in love with you for the past 2 years. I never said anything because I thought you would never feel the same way about me ever. I was just scared. And i know that you were scared too. So please, can we do this, together?" You almost lept into Dan's' arms hugging him so tightly that he might just explode.

"So is that a yes?" Dan asked. You replied with a nod because you were just too ecstatic to say anything...

And that was the start of a beautiful relationship <3