Daniel Howell Imagines

Leave Your Lover

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"You'll never know the endless nights, the rhyming of the rain, or how it feels to fall behind and watch you call his name. Pack up and leave everything, don't you see what I can bring? Can't keep, this beating heart at bay. Set my midnight sorrow free, I will give you all of me, just leave your lover, leave him for me..."

Unrequited love, it's such a funny thing isn't it? How you can be totally in love with someone but they don't love you back. Its heart breaking. Sometimes you watch the person you love, love someone else. You're happy that they're happy, but you wish that they could just love you back, but they don't, they can't.

Dan's P.O.V

"Is it okay if Matthew comes too?" (y/n)'s voice sounded through the phone. Right now I was making plans with one of my best friends, and she wanted to invite her boyfriend of 16 months. (y/n) and I haven't hung out together in a while, and when I mean together, I mean just the two of us, she always wants to invite her boyfriend, and I'll admit, I can't stand the guy, but at the same time, he makes her happy, extremely happy. Honestly, I felt...... disappointed that she wanted to invite him. I mean, I had to say yes otherwise she wouldn't come, but god!, he's like a fucking leech, constantly with her or near her, he never gives her any space, like seriously, it makes me sick. It's not fair, I loved her first, I loved her first...

"Yeah I guess, Matthew could come too, I don't see the problem" I basically lied through my teeth. I didn't want him to be with us 'but he's her boyfriend, not you' my subconscious kept telling me. Dammit. Matthew wasn't one of those stereotypical 'best friends boyfriend' We've never gotten into an argument, he's never confronted me about spending too much time with her, never told me to stay away from her. He's a genuine nice guy. The only reason why I couldn't stand him is because he has her, and it's heart shattering.

"Yay! We'll see you on Saturday then, Dan. Love you!" She squealed through the phone and then hung up.

"I love you too" I said even though she couldn't hear me, there was no chance in her hearing me say those three words to her without meaning. The difference between us is when we say we love each other, she means it in a friendly way, and well, I mean it with every ounce of my broken heart. She doesn't mean it the way that I do, and she never will.

I drag my heart broken and sorrow-filled butt to bed, knowing I'm not going to get much sleep tonight, if not any. '(Y/N) is your best friend, Dan. Move on already' I swear to god my subconscious tells me that every single night, and has been for the past 2 years. To distract my mind, I decide to go onto twitter, and just tweet something, because I can.

@danielhowell: Set my midnight sorrow free, I will give you all of me. Just leave your lover, leave him for me...

*TIME SKIP TO SATURDAY*

After tweeting that thing a couple of nights ago, the phandom went fucking crazy, like holy shit, calm your tits. It's currently 11am and I'm supposed to meet (Y/N) and Matthew in the park in about an hour. Great. Maybe if I'm lucky, they won't snog in front of me like they did last time, I still have nightmares.

To be honest, I don't even want to go anymore, It's just gonna hurt too much to see them together again, it's just a reminder that I wasn't good enough for her 'but Dan, she's one of your best friends, I'm sure she would love to see you' my subconscious says to me.
I sigh as i get up out of bed and do my morning routine as I usually would, which consists of showering, finding clothes, getting dressed, straightening my hair and what not. I start to head over to the park, and immediately see (Y/N) and Matthew sitting together on a park bench, holding hands and looking at each other, the way I supposedly look at Phil, making my heart break even more by the second.