Daniel Howell Imagines

Love Yourself

A/N: Hey Guys! Guess who's back? I wrote this one listening to Justin Bieber (pleeeaaassseeee don't judge me, his new music is so good though) and this fic just kind of wrote itself and for once, I'm actually really happy with it and proud of it and I hope you guys are happy with it and like it as much as I do. So thank you guys so much. Also, I got 3.2k reads on the imagine book and it's amazing so thank you guys so much <3

Song used: Love Yourself - Justin Bieber (also I do change one word in the song, but that's not important tbh)

Prompt: It's the time of year for Big Weekend and (Y/N) is a famous musician performing and she pulls a Taylor Swift and writes a song about her's and Dan's relationship, but it isn't a nice song.

Genre: tbh idek (can someone like send me a list of fanfic genres just so I know what I'm doing, that would be much appreciated ty)

Word Count: 1643 words

Third Person P.O.V

"Please help me with welcoming (Your/Full/Name) to the stage. Ladies and Gentlemen, (Your/Full/Name)!!"

The intense crowd cheers for the next artist coming onto the stage this year at Big Weekend. The chilly UK air whipped pass (Y/n)'s face as she made her way onto the stage. As soon as she came into view, the crowds screams and cheers intensified greatly. She sat on the pedestal in the middle of the stage, with her acoustic guitar. Although (Y/n)'s facial expressions and body language could've fooled anyone with how happy she seemed bouncing around ecstatically and the fact that she couldn't get rid of that huge grin on her face, that could've fooled anyone in the crowd, because as she looked out into the crowd, looking happy and strong, inside her heart was broken, but it was also quickly mending itself.

But the thought of having her ex-boyfriend, Dan Howell, standing on the side of the stage, about to watch her perform made her feel sick inside, like a pang of guilt just stabbed right through her stomach and heart. She looked to the side of the stage to see him standing there next to Phil, smiling at her nervously. She looks away from is gaze and averts her attention back to the crowd in front of her, waiting for them to quiet down, and it gave her time to think, time to think about the first song she was performing on her short set list, and the story that inspired this intriguing piece of music.

The song was written about all of the downs in the relationship (Y/N) and Dan had, the song was basically one of those 'hahahaha go fuck yourself!' kind of songs, but put into a deeper and more meaningful way. The song basically wrote itself and she was extremely happy. This song tells a story of an unhealthy relationship on the rocks, it tells a story of vulnerability, (Y/N) felt extremely vulnerable throughout the whole relationship.

But Dan, Dan was portrayed as the bad guy in the song, and he would soon find that out. Dan had heard rumors circulating that that (Y/N) had written and was performing a song about him, and he didn't know how to feel about it. But one emotion that was very clear to him, he felt scared. Dan would only hope that the song would be about all the great things they did together and all the great times they've had together, but knowing (Y/N) as well as he did, Dan had a feeling that it wasn't going to happen. They had so much issues and problems in the relationship, that it was actually so difficult to count all of the good times that they had together. Everyone wondered how they managed to stay together for as long as they did. Dan and (Y/N) claimed it was because their love was like the sun, extremely intense and so bright. But looking back at it recently, they both know that it wasn't like that. Their love wasn't like the sun, and they now know that, but except, it was like a flame on a candle, fragile and easy to burn out. There was a line that was crossed one night and the amount of profanities yelled at each other that night was impossible to count.

Their hearts were broken, but they're dealing with it in different ways. (Y/N) is able to channel her emotions into writing songs as a way of getting over their break up, or at least coming to terms with it. Dan on the other hand, he would lay face down on the floor wondering what he could've possibly done differently.

They both knew they weren't meant to be together, their personalities clashed too much. (Y/N) had a personality that seeked some sort of dependency, she had a personality that needed stability and for everything to be well organised, planned to perfection and for absolutely everything to go according to plan. Dan was basically the opposite, he's a free, independent person who enjoys his space and privacy, and he is also a very spontaneous person, who doesn't usually have a plan for anything.

Dan and (Y/N) were so lost in their thoughts, that Dan didn't realize that he was now full on staring at his ex lover who was on the stage, about to perform, and (Y/N) hadn't realized that the crowd was now awaiting her performance. She goes red out of embarrassment, not knowing how long the crowd had been waiting. (Y/N) clears her throat into the microphone and starts tuning her guitar whole trying to think of a mini speech to say, so she could introduce her newest song

"Hey guys. So this is a new song about a relationship that I was in, and I hope you guys like it" Short and simple she thought. She started playing the chords by picking her acoustic guitar. She was nervous. She knew that Dan would be there, but she just didn't think he would actually listen to her set-list. She thought that as soon as she was introduced, he would've left to go somewhere else, but he didn't. He was right there, he was supporting her.

'For all the times that you rained on my parade. And all the clubs you get in using my name. You think you broke my heart oh boy for goodness sake. You think I'm crying on my own well I ain't' She sung her heart out, gaining this new found confidence. This song was her life, this song was personal, but for some reason, she felt like she was sharing her side of the story, the story that she's never been able to hear.

'And I didn't want to write a song, cause I didn't want anyone thinking I still care, I don't but you still hit my phone up. And baby I've been moving on, and i think it should be something I don't wanna hold back, maybe you should know that, My momma don't like you and she likes everyone. And I never liked to admit that I was wrong. And I've been so caught up in my job, didn't see what's going but now I know, I'm better sleeping on my own. Cause if you like the way you look that much, oh baby you should go and love yourself. And if you think that I'm still holding onto something, then you should go and love yourself.' There was a lot of harsh truth in this song, like when she explained how her mother didn't like Dan. He didn't know that, but I guess now he does. The crowd applauded her throughout the song, and it felt so good for her, finally getting her side of the story out in the open. And she meant every word she sung in the song. At some points in the relationship, Dan could make her feel so small, but everyone was sure that he didn't mean to, he could just be very strongly opinionated at times, and made her feel like her opinion didn't matter.

But as Dan was hearing every single word she was singing and his heart was going into over drive. 'Is this how she really felt?' He thought to himself. It felt like a dagger was just going straight through his heart and it felt like it was breaking. Dan wouldn't make this known to many people, because he thought it would ruin his strong mindset he's been working so long and hard to get back after the break up, but he was hoping that there was a chance that they could re-kindle their broken relationship and sort all of their issues out because Oh God did he love her. He loved her to the moon and back and after months of denying his feelings towards her, he finally managed to come to terms with how he felt.

And now he felt broken. Extremely broken after the performance of her song and thats all he can think about, even after her set is finished. The words never leaving his head 'you should go and love yourself' He wanted to run to find her after the next artist had been welcomed to the stage and even if that means running all over the grounds that the festival was being held at, then we would do it. Because thats what love is right? Love is a feeling and when you're in love with somebody, you would go to the ends of the world to make them happy, even if they dont want to be with you. Because that's what love is right?