Therrie's Thirty Days of Temperamental Cycle

Chapter 21: Grief

When the news spread out like wildfire inside the health facility, it was total chaos. Everyone is emotionally, mentally, and physically devastated about what happened to Bianca. They were at so much loss and shocked. Some couldn't accept the fact that their friend is gone. It's the truth now. They have to accept it. They haven't seen and talked to her for a few days or even weeks and then they will be just hearing this crazy news that she died.

No, she took her own life and no one knows why. Apparently, no one.

Bianca's mentally ill, everyone inside the premises is, and the doctors could only know what happen. If they did something to it or it is because of them, none of them could rule it out. Doctors are politically liars, or maybe they are just looking after everyone's well-being.

"Makikita ba natin si Bianca?" tanong ni Benji.

Napakibit balikat naman si Therrie. "Hindi ko alam... wala naman silang sinasabi sa atin."

"Hindi nga ako nakatulog ng maayos, e," ani Benji. "Hindi ko makalimutan 'yon. Hindi ako makapaniwala..."

"Ako rin hanggang ngayon..." mahinang usal ni Therrie. "Hindi ko rin alam kung bakit."

Saglit lang ay biglang bumigay ang emosyon ni Benji at hindi na nito napigilan ang pag-iyak. She looked and stared at him for a minute, she couldn't get into her emotion as what he does. At the time she needed her emotion the most, she lose it.

She can't grieve for the loss of her friend. She cannot feel any emotion about this unfair death. It was wrecked. Heart-wrenching to watch how they took her off from being hung. All she could ever do was think of that moment and could feel nothing. She thought maybe that it was a good thing not to feel anything so she can focus on what she was doing—on what she should have known.

Lumapit si Chona sa kanila at niyakap na lamang ng babaeng kasamahan si Benji na humihikbi pa rin. They were all crying, but not all trying to act like everything is okay because it is not. Some may not what really happened, but some knew why—and they said, Bianca might think that everything's happening to her was too much so she ended it as she know it was the only possible way to not continue with the suffering she keeps enduring.

But no one knows the truth, it was just a thought, but the doctors could say a thing... but Therrie didn't believe them at this moment. She never believed every word they said.

"Therrie at Benji." Tumapon ang tingin ng dalawa nang marinig ang pangalan sa pamilyar na boses. Nang makita nila si Doctor Carmona kasama ang isang staff at agad silang pinalapit. Kinuha naman ni Therrie ang braso ni Benji upang tumungo sa diresksyon ng doctor. "Sumama kayong dalawa sa akin..."

Sa utos ng doctor, hindi umangal ang dalawa at sumunod na lamang ito. Pinangungunahan ni Doctor Carmona ang paglalakad habang nakasunod ang dalawa at sa kanilang likuran ay nakasunod ang staff na magbabantay kung sakaling may gawin ang dalawang ito.

Walang ideya ang dalawa kung saan sila pupunta kaya nang tanungin nila kung anong gagawin ay doon lamang ibinigay ng doctor kung saan sila pupunta. Nagbigay rin ito ng ilang babala sa dalawa sa mga bagay na bawal nilang banggitin. Sumang-ayon ang dalawa sa utos ng doctor. Therrie couldn't believe that the doctor wanted to hide the things they have seen.

The doctor just wanted them to say about the good things that happened and not the parts where they haven't seen her for a few weeks and haven't been around to talk to them.

At that point, it was suspicious for Therrie that the doctor manipulated them, but if she cracked and told them the truth, they could do something bad to her and that might lead to something worse.

But Therrie believes it was all orchestrated.

Bianca didn't die by taking her own life. That's what she got in her mind, but has no proof and courage to let it out since they might just say that Therrie's making it all up—and ironic to say, Therrie had gone crazy for believing that.