Why?

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by lesyeuxdecf

4/8/22 4:25am
So this is the part two of my story time. I can't stop myself writing here, it's s so addicting. I can make a book by writing here everytime lol.

Now i'm here again because of the unexpected post I've seen today. I shouldn't have been here but yeah, I can't just keep my thoughts running to my head everytime. Your memories just popped up to my news feed and yeah who am I not to watch it right?. I was laughing so hard and trying not to give reaction to it, I was supposed to give haha reaction about your dance but I stop myself coz why would i laugh it was your memories long ago and you're confident af in there. I do not want to make you feel I downgrade you for that. I watch it how many times and I can't stop myself from laughing so hard, i'm sorry HAHAHAHAHA. Then, this is what happen. I was not going to watch all of your memories but I accidentally click it and boom, I spotted your ex there w/ you. I literally went from smiling to crying 😭😂. It's ts been how many days since you've been flexing and mentioning her w/ your posts. I don't want to think this but maybe you wanted to get back together? I don't know. As I said before, kikiligin ako tas masasaktan malala. Well its true af🤦. Why I can't stop my feelings for you. If this feeling keeps on going deep, I don't know what to do anymore.
How to move on?🥲 Saktan mo pa ako malala.
I have seen a post of my friend earlier. And it really hit me hard. As said in the post 'take the risk or lose the chance'. Well I can take the risk for you but I assure that I will really lose the chance. You know what I mean?. I mean I can confess anytime but its really impossible to get that chance with you. I can't just sacrifice myself knowing it's s already obvious that we don't have this chance. But why of all people, ikaw pa?. True tlaga if your being teased with someone and suddenly you don't know you have already fallen for them. I already know in the first place this is not right, but why??? You really hit me hard. And the pain maam, everytime.

I'm really serious about this, that is why I always write my thoughts here. But fun fact, this is just because of you. I never have like diaries back then, but look at me now, talking to you even though I'm just really talking to myself because I have no one to talk to. Crazy right?. Now i'm im wondering again, if you already know that I have this feeling for you, maybe you just thought that it's just a little crush or something like I just find you beautiful but no. This is something more than that.

I can't express the feeling but yeah I think I have already fall in love.
But if falling for you was a mistake, then I'm not sorry. If loving you was a sin, then I'm happy being a sinner.

I'll just end this here.
Have a good night^^ good morning as well, its alr 5:27 in the morning :>