How Can I Move On, When I'm Still In Love With You

NVMD

5/18/22 3:44 am
It's been a while since i got to write here again. Things got clearer to me and I'm really trying my best to accept everything. It's not easy to move on and forget everything when you don't want to.

I have been so occupied. Not a single day i missed to think of you. I'm wondering what are you up to?, did you eat alr?, are you doing good?, how was your day?. These things keep running to my head and I don't know why.

I have to admit that even if I'll tell myself that I'm okay with everything still I'm hoping for more. You know I really admire you. I'm so whipped and obsessed with you. But I'm afraid that if these things would crossed the line I could hurt you. Not physically but emotionally. I don't really understand myself, it confuses me everytime.

But I know one day you'd fall for someone new. And that day alr begins and I'm not yet ready. I'm not yet ready to forget everything I said, I'm afraid not to fulfill those promises I've promised not to break, and those words that I've sincerely spoken. But they said promises are meant to be broken and words meant to be spoken but not proven.

I already accepted everything but I'm hoping for a chance. I will not going to deny that. But I know you never cared anyways. Let's just be real. I'm moving on but why do you keep on giving mixed signals?. When I'm alr moving on you will appear immediately and when I'm giving full attention and I have this hope for you but you don't give a fck. So what now?? You should give me a clearer statement so that I will not be stupid to keep on assuming things-delusional lang talaga ako HAHAHAHAHA

What should I do? I'm not yet ready. So this is the feeling of letting go the person you truly love?. It really hurts. I want to be happy for you but my heart couldn't agree.