The Beginning or The End?

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by lesyeuxdecf

by lesyeuxdecf

So wazupp mga pipols HAHAHA, it's been so long since I have read this book-2 years and I still can't believe it. I was able to tell my mortifying feelings in here and you folks have been watching over me hehe.

Just wanna say na life really changed na. I'm already in my senior high year and many things have happened that we're not part of each other's journey. You have yours and I have mine too, sino ba naman kasi ako!? HAHAHAHAHA. I can say that both of us are happy to what do we have right now, I really hope.

But anyways, since this book is all about moving on, let's talk about it. Moving on ba? (piece of cake)

char, hindi madali beh

Before I couldn't accept it, I was really engaged with the thought of writing here and expressing my feelings, hoping to change your mind. But it didn't work and it made the hell out of me. I wasn't like the others that they really force those things that they want, instead I tried to accept it. I tried to move on. It wasn't hard, but it wasn't easy as well.

I thought at first, how did I ever loved someone that I barely knew? Someone that's just there being the person she was and being pretty as hell. Maybe I was infatuated to the thought of being with someone. But if I'm gonna be honest, those times that we had interactions before made my stomach ache, like it was full of butterflies. Kinikilig talaga ako before, like fr HAHAHAHAHAHA. But now ofc, we couldn't even see each other for a second and you have someone na, ofc how could I still be adorned with you?

In fact, I have someone to. Well he's far miles away from here and ofc we couldn't see each other pa. We've been talking for a year na and we're still counting on it. He's someone na I can say in one word—green flag, like super so yun lang, we shouldn't talk about him because this book is only for you nga eh HAHAHAHA.

But yeah, I maybe have someone right now, but still remember that I'm still here admiring you. Not in a way na I really want to have something with you but the thought that I was happy being with you—before, to be specific. I had great memories with you and this book is the proof of it. It's giving 'the journey of the undying hope', in short—ang aking pagiging delulu HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Pero no regrets, I meant all the things I have said here.

I know you've been waiting for the update but you know too well that that can't happen anymore. But, you're wrong as well if you thought I will not write back here ever again.

Moving on is a part of life. It's like, if you have problems, you need to find ways to solve them. You need to study and work hard to fulfill your dreams. You need to push boundaries to test your limits. Wala namang mawawala if you're gonna commit and try new things. There, you would realize the things that you could do and you couldn't do. Ganon din and love, if you love that person, know to let go if he/she wants to be free, it means that person could choose and decide what he/she wants, without guilt, but willingly to pick you or reject you. Without moving on, how could we know that we're strong? How could we learn how to step to another stages of life if we do not try harder? Therefore, I can conclude na d pako nakaka move on.

eme HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

I'm just trippin'. Parang ang lalim na kasi mga beh, d ko na maabot sinasabi ko. Pero yun nga, it doesn't mean that because we're not already in that stage, that we have left things behind already, doesn't mean that we forget about them.

Because I know for a fact that love is endless.

Even the dead are still remembered and loved, paano pa kaya yung nabubuhay diba? Even though time changes, I know my love for you is still there. I love the memories we made even though it's one sided and that's the true definition of love. It doesn't matter if your feelings were reciprocated, as long as you showed how you really care for them and you would accept everything, their decisions, even if it will hurt you.

Just move on and try to explore new steps in your way. Start a new beginning because life doesn't just stop there, just keep moving, until you find the happy ending that you deserve.

The end >>>>