How Can I Move On, When I'm Still In Love With You

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6/18/22 11:40 pm

Finally i get to write here again. Nothing interesting, nothing to talk to but I feel like tonight is the right time to let this out. Let this thoughts and feelings shared and be cleared.

My day was absolutely good. My week seemed peaceful and I hope this month and upcoming months would be very good to me. Well how about you? Is your month, weeks, days and hours or minutes or even seconds was great to you? You look happy and that means a lot that you are fine and contented of what you have now. I see that and I'm happy for you. I hope you do well and I hope he'll love you and doesn't hurt you.

—That feeling?, that kind of support that i do, behind was pain, sadness, jealousy i guess? I'm happy for you but you know feelings can't control when it's still here. Can't help to stop or to control, cause I'm still feeling it. Seeing you in every social media acc, your face, your smile, everything that you do. Can't disagree that I'm still inlove with the every piece of you. But thinking of that someone, that someone that you have fallen in love to, it stops me and it turns everything back to reality that destiny doesn't agree with the way that i do. I wanted to reach out but i cannot, reality hits me and it makes my heart get so weak and It seemed that I can't control anything. This feelings, it just keeps going.

It's my first time to fall in love like this. Thought at first, it was just a simple crush. But turned out that I have this feeling towards you, something deeper and unexplainable. You're not hard to love nor was I. But yeah I get it, it wasn't meant for me. Though i did still hope for something but I already accepted. Some thing's are destined for us but sometimes these things are not meant for us because maybe for others sake or for our own good too.

I was currently moving on, it doesn't mean that i fallen out of love and i don't care. This moving on for me was that I would gladly accept and just be happy for you. It's like letting go, for your own happiness and mine too. We're in good terms, still friends but I'm mad at you. Damn why would you add me in close friends list and let me see that thing. You know i would feel terrible like at first I'm happy that you added me since it's the first time you posted on your close friends. Didn't know that thing would break the sht out of me. It was traumatic and I was madly hurt and that's when I decided that—that would be the last post that I'm gonna see about you.

Anyways, I'll share that motivational quotes is one of my moving on buddy. It gives me strength and like it always makes me feel better about myself, about controlling emotions and letting go what that is not worth it. So I must recommend this first, if you feel really down, like you're feeling to give up or you need motivations, you must read quotes frequently. It boosts your self-esteem and confidence.

Speaking of, i have also realized something lately. That action is not really good when it's lack of words. Means when lack of communication, action might be assumed wrong. But sometimes actions prove someone who really is, but we don't know. Pretending or not, still if no words or assurance have been said means it doesn't mean a thing. Thoroughly, i conclude that action must put into words and words must be proven with action.