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If I am being honest it's really hard for me to choose which friends I am going to talk next since I adore all of them so I'll just pick the person I feel closest to after my best friend. I'll give her nick name as "Ensis"(I say that cause she's more like a sister whose same age as mine. So combining her name and sis I call her that.)

'Mine and her friendship started in a very complicated way through.
I met her in 2016(when I was in 3rd grade) when we both were chosen to be in the same dance performance category in a show our school held that year. Well I was not very comfortable with her since I had heard lot of people talking bad about her being mean, rude person and she did give a aura like that. So that year we did not have much interactions with each other.

Then we met each other again in 2019 since we were in the same class. I did not become her friend straightly. When I was with my other friends they were friends with her so I also used to go, sit and listen since they were the only friends I had in my class. Then she was also friends with another friend of mine who wasn't that close to the friends I mentioned before. So when I started hanging out with her you could say I started becoming more close to Ensis.

But there was thins thing about Ensis; she's nice, caring and kind to the people she knows but to others she's just as I've heard; mean and rude.

So there was actually times where she would intentionally or unintentionally hurt me but she still cared about me and was nice to me so had not courage to tell her she hurted me.(since I had my own things going on with me).

Then from the ending of 2nd term or mainly you could say by the beginning of 3rd term in our school Ensis and the group friends I said about earlier ( not the individual friend)had some problems between each other so they were not in good terms. And that time I spent more time with Ensis and our other friends more because I felt more comfortable with them.

Then on 2020 we both has to part because she was in the same class as my bestie and I was in another class. And with the pandemic our school closed and we didn't get the chance to see each other. That was the same year I had some things going through myself so I barely got to talk with my friends but I did.

Then a year passed and we were in 2021.So she invited me for her birthday which was in March. After that we started talking with each other more than we did before. And starting from July that year we started talking more frequently like if before we talked once a month or once after three weeks we started talking with each other. One thing is I noticed she was going through some hard times and I was worried so eventually I became her comfort in away or the person you could rant about problems. And I was very grateful for it because it was helping me reassuring me .I also like comforting people and giving them them comfort for the best I could. So with that we started getting close that now she consider me as her living "DIARY".

While getting to know I got that she had hard time trusting people and expressing her emotions in the past years and she figured things about herself last year (2020).She is different from before I mean she is nice to everyone unless they don't deserve that kindness and she smiles more often, more genuine smiles.

But my mother doesn't like her very much because she as that impression of Ensis she got of 2019 which isn't that bad to dislike her. And maybe because she's not very good at studies and she says that she might distract me from that but I know better cause she instead ask me to study same as Sonakshi ( I HATE STUDYING).FYI one time my mother asked me if I love Ensis romantically because of how much I talk and chat with her resulting me almost always being in the phone ( I also talk my others friends too)but however I was very much taken aback by it.

But it's past and my mother still doesn't like her. But however I am really glad to be having a friend like Ensis.'

Well that'll be for Ensis.
Moving on her the next friend I'd like to mention would "HJ" .That's her nickname made with her first and last name letters together. She's one of the people I am very comfortable as in spending time with cause we both have been classmates for 5 years straight and getting to know each other. So lets goo!!!

'When I was in 4th grade (2017)my mother told me to see if the person with the name H*****i is in my class since her mother is also in my mother's unit in the same hospital .So when I checked she was in my class and that's how I got to know her. We had the friendship as classmate nothing deep or more than that in 4th and 5th grades both. Then in 6th grade I got to be more close to her I used to spend time with her. Mainly she and Ensis were the ones who had problems; more specifically their sisters. However it was  a little complicated though since I was both friends with Ensis and HJ but how ever I pulled through and in the present their some what in terms with each other the main reason being them seeing each other daily as I am with both of them.

Then we both didn't get to interact much Because we barely meet but I was up to date with anything with her life since our mothers'. But we did chat with each other between our online classes and we got more closer in that way since that way it was easier to me to express myself without feeling much self-conscious as I usually feel.

Since I have known her and seen her through the years I could tell she's very smart or more likely very committed. From 4th grade onwards and until now she has always been the 1st in class through the years . One thing I have noticed is that she's really pressured because of that. She does have fun but it's in away very limited. But she is currently irritated with the fact she has to study because people have exception for her including her mom, our classmates specially and importantly herself. Her elder sister is a vey studious person ,and since she's 3 years older than us HJ had to study to catch up with her sister Because She can't just stay have fun when her sister is studying scooped up in her room especially in the exam days. Studying is important but you need to have some peacefulness in life too to study.

However she's quiet straightforward and blunt when speaking. Like she just speaks her mind without thinking if it'll hurt others or not but her character has developed a lot from those times in the past. She kinda has a pride too and she doesn't easily back down sometimes even when she's in the wrong but recently sha has been more understanding. So it makes it more comfortable for me since there were times where I was hurt a little from her too.

In some way she reminds me of Ensis. I mean I guess it's a similarity only I see. She used to believe that "Kids in our age doesn't have problems" and "We are just supposed to have some little fun" which eventually has changed now .

I am more comfortable around her more with her maturing on her thoughts and words about the general public and life. So I am more comfortable around her. She's an amazing with great motivation for others.

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Well I'll tell about one of my favorite (not that I actually can pick a favorite though) friend next. She's one of the friends that actually touched my heart in an very unexplainable way but until BYE and TAKE CARE.