MY LIFE (BLOG)

BLOG#13

20/06/2022

So, there is a rumor going around in our section and the people subject to this are two people from my class and another from a class next to ours.

Our class teacher was so disappointed in us and the whole class is kinda getting punished for it. We can't go out of the classroom after coming in the morning and teacher arranged our seats, so we sit according to our register. If we go out of the class, we have to write the time we went and came and their reason of going out. We are staying like criminals inside our classroom.

However, I got curious after being friends with me for few years what do my friends thought about me. So, I sent them a message asking, "What do you think of me as a person and a friend, and what are my charms?" (I only asked it from my 4 closest friends).

1.Sonszki

" Well, you are a good and a trustful friend. Also, a friend that listen to me and gives me the suitable advice and a friend who feels other's feelings. And a friend that will talk to you even though she is still jealous.
And when I first saw you, I loved your chocolate skin and your eyes and your smile but now I also Loves your shape and your kind heart and that ability to listen to everyone and never abandoning a friend."

2.Ensis

"Actually, everyone can trust you. You are really trustworthy. I always call you and talk about my problems and you always solve my problems. You really have a good personality though. You are really kind and pretty🥰. Words can't actually explain about you. You are really a good friend <3."

3.HJ

"You are a very good friend. We were friends since 4th grade. We all can trust you always. You are so mature, and you are a sister to me. You always advise me about childish things I do. So, thank you very much for being my friend for so long. You are so emotional. People can use you easily because you are too kind for others. PLEASE BE CAREFUL. So, thank you very much for everything that you had done for me. BYE."

4.TJ (Her one is a little long and I am going to exactly type it in the same way she has written)

"Well, you want it to be long. No worries :) If I have to explain you to someone else, I'd say you are someone who thinks the good in everyone (even bad people). And also, a bit too kind though that's not bad. SOOO how am I going to start? I'm sitting on my bed FYI ready to write a book about "Pros and Cons about Chenu"😀. So, get ready!

Starting from the beginning, when I first met you in 6ht grade you were a very quiet, kind and a timid girl. You never did anything that would harm anyone. But of course, back then I was among a different bunch making jokes and laughing. The thing is that never in my life have I looked for a friend. If I find someone, I make friends with them and stay. But you see that fact is I never have anything common with these people. And that's where you came along, and we talked, and we had SOOO much in common. I was SOOO happy cause I finally met someone who had equal likes and dislikes. But that year we didn't get to be together much. Well to be very honest, first time we met I thought you didn't like me. But now I know how ridiculous that thought is because you never hate anyone. And then after 6th grade, old friends had to split up. I was with you and HJ, so we started to get to know each other.

 I really have to tell you that's when I noticed what a "true friend" was, Chenu, never in my life have I spoken my feelings to anyone. When I want somebody to talk to, when I feel lonely, I never had anyone. And of course, now is the time we have our "teenage issues" and I have never talked about those to anyone either, people might see me as an extravert, but I'd say I'm the most introvert. Because when it comes to me, unlike you, I don't talk about my feelings or anything. I actually don't give them a second thought and just shove them away. But I'd say you are the first person to listen to them. I thought you noticed because I didn't tell you much, just tiny bits. But that's special about you is you were the first to listen. You are a really good listener. I really love that about you. And you might not know how much these things mean to me. I might look like someone who laughs and sing songs 24/7 and talk about K-pop. But I have deep feelings too. It's just I am not used to showing them. 

So, what I am saying is Chenu don't be too depressed about life. It's just life and as teens we all go through this. It's just the way. we don't have to always think about them and dwell on them. Everyone has flaws, nobody is perfect. We have to try hard to become better. and you have to make a plan to do that. I am no better than you in studying or anything like that. But what I have noticed is that you should be more positive and to do that you should make a positive background around you. It works for different people differently. For me, personally I like music, so I get my positivity and energy through that. I also get the negative energy out of myself with songs, but my point is to get positive energy read positive books, read quotes (funny ones), watch funny K-Dramas, don't always stick to sad stories, sad songs. It's ok to read (sad stories) them to get some emotion too many of those could get you depressed too.

I guess that's all I got to say. You are a precious person and it's ok to have made mistakes. Forget those mistakes using your technique and move forward in life. I know one day or maybe even next year we will go our separate ways. But I know if I have no one to talk I can call, and you'll listen because you are a bundle of heaven. Cheers to the time we'll spend together and BEST OF LICK! for your future^_^. Fighting girl, fighting."

So yeah... this was my friends' responses I got. And don't mind TJ's long response because she basically had the book this was written with her for over a month.

Regardless I am so grateful for their words. I honestly like to know what people think of me, so I am happy to see their way of viewing/ seeing me. And it just warms my heart.

Maybe I like being praised and appreciated by others because it feels nice. I don't always get to feel like this so when I does it's refreshing and overwhelming at the same time.
But moreover, I really appreciate my friends so much that it kind of hurts my heart. I don't know why but that for me to figure out later.

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This is a small glimpse into myself through my friends who I spend a lot of time. I hope you guys were able to get something about me through this.

Do you think I'm exactly like they say? or could I be different as well?

TAKE CARE,
BYE.